Method Phenobarbital + Heroin Method + Hiding Body

[klantedklaw]

Hi all,

I plan to CTB sometime in Late Summer/ Autumn (I live in the southern hemisphere) and would like to share my plan and hopefully get some feedback on ways it can be improved.

Location: I plan to CTB deep in a forest (national park), getting to the location will take approximately 10 hours, there is no cell service, and it is mountainous, with dense flora so there is no chance of anyone coming to help. The location is approximately 5km away from the nearest track, so its almost impossible for anyone to stumble across me. Its also an area where no hunting is permitted, so I don't see any reason people would be wandering this far away from the established hiking tracks. I'm also very athletic and experienced in the outdoors - so this is very achievable for me (I've already been there a few times).

Method: I've done some shopping online and have found 60g of pharma Phenobarbital for $50 USD and heroin for $120 USD/ gram (which is supposedly high purity). I plan to inject the heroin (1g) to calm myself (I get very nervous and scared) but I'm not sure how I should administer Phenobarbital (oral or IV) or what dose to use yet. I would ideally like to have a slow but peaceful death - I don't want it to be fast (I kind of want to be able to "process it"), so I'm leaning more into oral Phenobarbital.

Hiding my body: I've scouted out the location and have found a tree well from a huge tree thats died. If I had to guess the tree well is probably about 3 metres deep. I went inside of it before and its quite comfortable, I can sit down as well :). I plan to CTB in the well and will wear dark clothes/ bring a dark blanket with me, which will hopefully prevent my body from being discovered for at least 6-12 months (but probably forever). The reason I want to hide my body is because I dont want to be found partially decomposed, I think dead bodies are gross and I want to spare my family from seeing my rotten body. I think a skeleton is a lot easier to process and is less traumatic for others. This is also why I plan to CTB in late summer/ early autumn where fungal activity and humidity is highest - and its still a little bit warm to hopefully speed up my organic decay.

My main questions are:

• Is Phenobarbital a reliable and peaceful way to go?;
• Is 1g of heroin enough to feel euphoric & Should I try/ test the heroin before I CTB to dial the dosage (I haven't used drugs before so have zero tolerance and insight), I've asked a user on here about their experience - they consumed a different opiate and said that they experienced a rollercoaster of emotions until eventually feeling euphoric;
• Is hiding my body a good thing? I've thought about sending an automated message to my family 12 months after my death to give them the coordinates and directions to my body (to give them closure) along with my note. I don't think its fair to leave them in dark about whats happened (I plan to tell them I'm going travelling overseas for the next 12 months and will be without reception). I'm worried they will try and look for me and have false hope of me returning, but on the otherhand I wouldn't want to scar my family since my parent's are quite old and I'm somewhat young (20m) and discovering I have CTB will give them significant emotional trauma.
• Should I bring my ID with me? In the event someone finds me, should I make it easy for them to identify me?

I'm also wondering whether you think this type of method is something another person would potentially be interested in, I would ideally like to do this with someone else, but if the general concensus here is that it's too weird I won't get my hopes up.

Thanks for reading (◕‿◕✿)