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I watched that recent video about this site after someone let me know my username showed up in the video and reading the comments is so annoying. They're all like "Oh why would you ever join a site like that / don't join that site, instead" and then its the most generic advice that everyone has heard 5 million fucking times. "Get help." My therapist gave up on me and when I decided I thought I might like to try therapy again with a new therapist, I realized I can't afford it anymore. Yes, even the 'cheap' options that you hear one million times over that sponsor youtubers and celebrities. "Reach out to someone." I have, at max, two friends, both of whom are busy a lot and live far away from me. I can guarantee you that all they will say to me is "Damn man that sucks." or "Yea I think you just have to CTB." or they'll just ignore me completely. "No they won't, they're your friends !!" I have, on multiple occasions, talked to them about certain things in my life and been met with these responses, they're not made up. I do not have friends to reach out to. Saw one that was literally just "Be happy !!!" Okay, tbf, what they were actually saying is that like you shouldn't stew in your own negativity because that can make things worse, but like a positive attitude will do literally nothing for me. It's just so annoying. "Things will get better!" They say as everything continues to get worse and worse. Better is something that like can not even happen to me right now. My mother, who is a registered sex offender, is in prison for the next 4 years. My dad and step-mom, well, I used to say they hate me but the truth is they have no idea who I am because I've had to spend my entire life being someone else to avoid abuse. My best friend in the entire world doesn't really give a fuck about me anymore and also lives on the complete opposite side of the country and will never move back here. I have tried to make friends in the town I live in, but there are only old people and people who hate me for simply existing that live in this town. And, quite frankly, I'm sick of hiding who I am so that someone else will give me approval. I'm just sick of stupid bullshit that gets repeated over and over like you're not the first person to say "You matter." You think I haven't heard that from other people who don't know a single thing about me before? It doesn't even mean anything, it's an absolute nothing statement I could be a terrible person, maybe I don't fucking matter, you don't know.
 
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security check that you've already been told about: if your sasu username can identify you anywhere else please change it

People will ignore truths and facts about suicide and always end up on the "get help, be happy, call your friend" train . I found no point in trying to discuss with them, as they don't seem to take anyone suicidal seriously and don't want to give us a try. Not my problem.

Also heard the "you matter" thing like so many times in the hospital like jeez you don't know anything about my life and what caused me to get here
 
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I watched that recent video about this site after someone let me know my username showed up in the video and reading the comments is so annoying. They're all like "Oh why would you ever join a site like that / don't join that site, instead" and then its the most generic advice that everyone has heard 5 million fucking times. "Get help." My therapist gave up on me and when I decided I thought I might like to try therapy again with a new therapist, I realized I can't afford it anymore. Yes, even the 'cheap' options that you hear one million times over that sponsor youtubers and celebrities. "Reach out to someone." I have, at max, two friends, both of whom are busy a lot and live far away from me. I can guarantee you that all they will say to me is "Damn man that sucks." or "Yea I think you just have to CTB." or they'll just ignore me completely. "No they won't, they're your friends !!" I have, on multiple occasions, talked to them about certain things in my life and been met with these responses, they're not made up. I do not have friends to reach out to. Saw one that was literally just "Be happy !!!" Okay, tbf, what they were actually saying is that like you shouldn't stew in your own negativity because that can make things worse, but like a positive attitude will do literally nothing for me. It's just so annoying. "Things will get better!" They say as everything continues to get worse and worse. Better is something that like can not even happen to me right now. My mother, who is a registered sex offender, is in prison for the next 4 years. My dad and step-mom, well, I used to say they hate me but the truth is they have no idea who I am because I've had to spend my entire life being someone else to avoid abuse. My best friend in the entire world doesn't really give a fuck about me anymore and also lives on the complete opposite side of the country and will never move back here. I have tried to make friends in the town I live in, but there are only old people and people who hate me for simply existing that live in this town. And, quite frankly, I'm sick of hiding who I am so that someone else will give me approval. I'm just sick of stupid bullshit that gets repeated over and over like you're not the first person to say "You matter." You think I haven't heard that from other people who don't know a single thing about me before? It doesn't even mean anything, it's an absolute nothing statement I could be a terrible person, maybe I don't fucking matter, you don't know.


where is the video?
 
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