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iamanavalanche

iamanavalanche

fast words, deliverance
May 20, 2024
281
when i first joined sasu, i was in a really happy relationship. i wouldnt dream for him to ctb with me. i think he'll live on to be really happy and to have a bright future and i knew that even then. thats why we are not together anymore. i need to leave the world and he needed to move on.
 
bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,342
I'd like them to go first, then see if I feel better.
 
-nobodyknows-

-nobodyknows-

I will face my fate.
Jun 16, 2024
798
Not currently in a relationship, but I definitely wouldn't want this. I had a friend that told me that they would kill themselves if I did and I really worried about that happening (honestly I still do, even though they told me they wouldn't and I haven't heard from them in years)
 
SparkleWater

SparkleWater

Student
Oct 13, 2020
110
No because unlike me he has a life ahead of him.
 
JesiBel

JesiBel

protoTYPE:cclxxv
Dec 5, 2024
1,079
No, never, I wouldn't want to lead anyone down the same path as me. On the contrary, I want them to live a full and happy life.

I don't have a partner, I would only bring problems and sadness.
 
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Haematemesis

Haematemesis

Student
Jan 12, 2025
190
nope, I'd want her to live a long happy life
 
Anonymousa

Anonymousa

Global Mod · Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
2,542
Seen as I entered a relationship with someone from SaSu, me doing this with them is definitely a possibility in the future maybe. I mean I would definitely like this to happen but thats of course if they are okay with it too and when we are both ready to else we can just ctb separately. I don't see death as a bad thing at all as we would no longer suffer there so if thats what we both want then I see no reason to do it together to make death easier to deal with. I would be okay with dying on my own tho but this would be a nice luxury to have.
 
GhostInTheMachine

GhostInTheMachine

Safeguard
Nov 5, 2023
531
Absolutely not. He actually has a life worth living and does not suffer from all the mental bullshit I do. He has no reason to die prematurely, and many reasons to continue on without me to live a fruitful life with me as a fading memory. I tell him every day that he can do better, sometimes jokingly, sometimes not. Overall, there's no reason for both of us to die, it'd be a waste of his potential.
 
Xiaojiu

Xiaojiu

cease to exist 不复存在
Mar 28, 2025
701
No!! Not at all. It was my dream for years, for me— it's the ultimate love, i get you so much! but not anymore, or at least not for now.
She has so much future waiting for her, she's a GREAT and ambitious person. So, now, i only wish to be deleted from her life, so she could go on further in her life.
Wow, this is how I feel about my husband :( He has a lot going for him. Finished school, career, stable friendships, etc. I just feel like I'm in the way of him living life to the fullest. I just want to disappear from everyone for good because they're better off without me


It honestly almost happened to me and my husband. I told him that I wanted to die one night and he got up, took his gun, stood by our door and was like, "Okay, let's go."

And I was like, "What? No, I want to die. I don't want you to go with me if that's not how you really feel." I know he doesn't want to actually die, he has a lot going for him even if I disappear. So, I stood my ground, and didn't leave on behalf of him.

Since that night, I honestly fantasize about it a lot now. Us ctbing together, hugging each other. But, it's not what he actually wants for himself so I'm just telling myself I have to go alone one day. . .
 
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Apokryphiel

Apokryphiel

Leave me
Mar 23, 2025
104
A lover's suicide is my greatest dream. But that's just a dream.
 
J

jack straw

New Member
Apr 28, 2025
1
No absolutely not, I personally think its morally awful and a manipulative thing to do. The thought that I might have coerced someone I love to into dying when there was a chance theyd choose to live revolts me. And I don't want anyone I love to suffer just because Im gone. I certainly don't want anyone to die bc of me.
Totally agree
 

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