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L9my

L9my

they are dead, for they have no dreams
Nov 22, 2024
995
So I haven't been to school in 3 weeks.
The first 1 and half weeks, I was sick. The rest, I was rotting away.

Today I did something I've been dreading. I went to the gym.
I'd been dreading the commute, and the crowds. But yesterday I went outside, so I gave it a shot today.

I managed, I hit legs and decided to be happy in the group chat.
I'm trying to manage what I can. Going to the gym has a very loose time window, whereas going to school has a time window in which you can be late, thus requiring you to wake up at a certain time to attend.
I still dread going outside, but I focus on the destination or try to distract myself with music (most of the time).

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This pissed me off. I dunno, I was just trying to show that I'm no longer bedrotting.
I know he's talking about me not going to school. Why would I stay at home for attention?
fuckers say shit like this and then wonder why they aren't spoken to

Then I see this bullshit:
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1743686189370 - this is an insufferable comment, because I wasn't by their definition. I was still passively suicidal.

Without the community here and the people I've met here, I wouldn't be in the recovery section, somewhat recovering. I'd probably have tried to catch a train and failed and been worse off and traumatized the people around.

1743686259891 - it's banned because people like you think that a website/forum has the power to shape minds. I hate this stupid narrative.
They say things like this and then wonder why I'd prefer to be here than talk to them.



If anyone could direct me to posts that disagree with any of their points, it would be greatly appreciated.
Even what you think I should search in the search bar would be nice.

Thank you!
 
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Grav

Grav

Elementalist
Jul 26, 2020
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Great job hitting the gym, reminds me i need to restart my routine. There are positive posts that come up about the site, maybe search on "thank you" or community, those seem to come up in those posts. Honestly i wouldn't try to convince them since they seem already set in their head. Maybe just a "you don't understand and i wish you would" and leave it at that. If they have room to absorb that then they may back off a bit. I discuss some topics on here with my wife and she's not super thrilled. But she also knows the site helps me make it through even though it can feed downward spirals also. She's concerned so she'll never be 100% on self check-out and that's ok. Do these people just criticize or are they trying to help you deal with things?
 
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L9my

L9my

they are dead, for they have no dreams
Nov 22, 2024
995
Great job hitting the gym, reminds me i need to restart my routine. There are positive posts that come up about the site, maybe search on "thank you" or community, those seem to come up in those posts. Honestly i wouldn't try to convince them since they seem already set in their head. Maybe just a "you don't understand and i wish you would" and leave it at that. If they have room to absorb that then they may back off a bit. I discuss some topics on here with my wife and she's not super thrilled. But she also knows the site helps me make it through even though it can feed downward spirals also. She's concerned so she'll never be 100% on self check-out and that's ok. Do these people just criticize or are they trying to help you deal with things?
so far for some of them it's just been criticism
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotional unstable like and IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
608
People can be like that honestly
But awesome job for hitting the gym.

If they day things like that they don't seem like good freinds at all.

If you think this website helps you , then thats what matters right?

Anyways wish you a good day or night.
 
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