Partial Suicide advice

[rankinchris]

Hi All,

I am new to this site, 7 weeks ago I broke up with the mother of my child, It was not through my choice, she made the decision to end it, I have not seen my daughter who is 19 months old for 7 weeks now. My ex partner has told family members that she has met someone new and has been on days out with him and my daughter already. On top of this I have lost my job ( aircraft mechanic ) due to the virus. I cant bare this pain any longer of loosing my family and seing them with another man.
I have tried every day partial hanging I have sufferd from depression for 3 years. I used a hang mans knot noose with nylon rope and put it over the door, Last week I managed to pass out. However, ever since I have not been able to complete it fully complete the act or even get myself remotely close to passing out.
I have tried leaning into the rope, I have tried tightening it as much as possible, its just not working.
I cant bare another day of this .

 

[randomz]

I am really sorry for everything you are going through. I can't give you the advice you are looking for as I don't have any knowledge or experience with partial hanging but I do want to say that I hope everything works out for you in the end and you find happiness. There is always time for something good to happen in your life. If you need to talk, you can always PM me.

 

[rankinchris]

Thank you, Any information or advice on rope placement etc would be a massive help. Thank you for your message. However, I am determined to end my life in this way.

 

[tooStupidForExitBag]

The hangman's knot shouldn't be used for partial suspension since it doesn't tighten as easily when pressure is put on it, a simple noose would be more effective. You can read more in the partial suspension megathread under the resource compilation, but getting partial suspension right can be tricky.

 

[LMLN]

I am so sorry for your circumstances. We are here to talk if you'd like.

 

[rankinchris]

Could someone give me advice on which knot is best used for partial ?

 

[one4all]

Could someone give me advice on which knot is best used for partial ?

Please check these two threads out for some information that might help

How to hang yourself

Hanging Comfortably

 

[rankinchris]

I want her to understand how bad things really were, do you think this is achievable with my death ?

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

I want her to understand how bad things really were, do you think this is achievable with my death ?

NO. The only thing that your suicide will cause is that you are dead. That's it. That's all.

You should not expect your suicide to cause anyone else to think or feel anything about you. Most likely she will only see you as crazy and be glad you are out of her life.