gasforme
Student
- Jan 9, 2026
- 109
I guess it's true that no one in my life has ever cared about me in the slightest and my mind always thought my family did and they cared about me the least of them all
I have friends/acquaintances they don't care that much but acknowledge my existence
My family wants me punished for a fantasy they aren't just don't care they actively desire to harm me in anyway legally possible like calling the police and restraining orders etc for no reason at all
My entire life has been spent caring about other people and trying to do the right thing thinking that would lead others to care for me in return but it never happens
My family still has never made sense to me why they actively want to harm me
The echoes or voices are manifestations of if I can just be perfect then someone would care but it's an unachievable outcome so every time I fail it gets worse
And it's kind of crazy because I have this capacity to empathize and care for others that apparently other people don't have and it is my personality disorder is that I care about other people
I have friends/acquaintances they don't care that much but acknowledge my existence
My family wants me punished for a fantasy they aren't just don't care they actively desire to harm me in anyway legally possible like calling the police and restraining orders etc for no reason at all
My entire life has been spent caring about other people and trying to do the right thing thinking that would lead others to care for me in return but it never happens
My family still has never made sense to me why they actively want to harm me
The echoes or voices are manifestations of if I can just be perfect then someone would care but it's an unachievable outcome so every time I fail it gets worse
And it's kind of crazy because I have this capacity to empathize and care for others that apparently other people don't have and it is my personality disorder is that I care about other people
