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The first page or two of Captivated by You by Sylvia Day.
If I sit and really think about it I'm sure I can remember more but this is the first and only thing that came to mind when I read this thread.
There's a history of nightmares in me that goes back a long time. There was a morning several years ago when I woke up from one that shoves you from sleep numb and weak. One that leaves your soul behind and you're forced to drag around your carcass by will alone. The kind where the world doesn't feel real and you do not belong to it. A fairly mild nightmare.
Mornings like those you don't have words. I found myself in the shower with my eyes closed and my hands against the cold tiles under the cold spray waiting to be something close to human again. I don't know how long I was in there. I got out and picked up one of the books that had been sitting on my desk. It was as good a time as any to start reading it.
On the first page, the 4th book in the series, strangely begins with the male protagonist. That's new.
The book starts with him waking up from a nightmare of his abuse.
He gets in the shower.
He thinks about his partner and how unsafe it is to be around him at night because of these nightmares which is why he has to sleep alone despite his longing otherwise.
I closed the book. I couldn't pick it up again for a long time.
It wasn't what I was expecting to read. It wasn't what I was prepared to read. And the worst crime of all, Gideon was too much of me.
"Are you adopted, or did your parents fuck for you?"
bottom left panel of page 50 of Daniel Clowes graphic novel Caricature, the story titled Like a Weed, Joe
didn't care for the short story / didn't like it or the character who said that line
but to me it is personal/relatable and deep although I think it's meant to be funny or maybe funny and somewhat sad at the same time
but I guess it's up to how the reader interprets it
or maybe it's sad because the unlikable character who says it is very troubled and is probably going to become a terrible adult and this allows the reader to think of reasons why he may be that way since he said that line and what his parents or lack of parents are like
I don't want to find the page right now but it was in perks of being a wallflower. The teacher that Charlie liked was talking to him about how Charlie's sister was hit by her boyfriend. The teacher says
"we accept the love we think we deserve".
Very basic but it stuck with me even until now because I have issues in the love area of my life deep down and extending into others. Like I used to be with a guy who smelled so bad, smelling up my whole room and having it linger type of bad, and I hated it so much. He was disrespectful and just fake too. I stayed with him because I felt like that was the love I deserved, someone who I found disgusting and who used my worst insecurity against me.
That quote and experience really made me think about the love I think I deserve.
It is worth reading it. And re Ennet House resident Kate Gompert and this depression issue: Some psychiatric patients- plus a certain percentage of people who've gotten so dependent on chemicals for feelings of well-being that when the chemicals have to be abandoned they undergo a loss-trauma...
From A Wizard of Earthsea by Ursula K. Le Guin. Optional context:
The main character, a fledgling wizard named Ged, tries to resurrect someone but instead releases a demon spirit into the world. It injures him with permanent scars. It exists in the world for many years. Showing up randomly as a shadow version of Ges and forms ting his dreams. After many years of study and maturing, Ged travels to the edge of the world, where this scene takes place.
The quote is a massive spoiler for the end of the book so I will hide it: Aloud and clearly, breaking that old silence, Ged spoke the shadow's name and in the same moment the shadow spoke without lips or tongue, saying the same word: "Ged." And the two voices were one voice.
Ged reached out his hands, dropping his staff and took hold of his shadow, of the black self that reached out to him. Light and darkness met, and joined, and were one.
Good lord what a powerful statement. It changed how I thought of myself and my hardships and how I dealt with parts of myself I didn't like.
From A Wizard of Earthsea by Ursula K. Le Guin. Optional context:
The main character, a fledgling wizard named Ged, tries to resurrect someone but instead releases a demon spirit into the world. It injures him with permanent scars. It exists in the world for many years. Showing up randomly as a shadow version of Ges and forms ting his dreams. After many years of study and maturing, Ged travels to the edge of the world, where this scene takes place.
The quote is a massive spoiler for the end of the book so I will hide it: Aloud and clearly, breaking that old silence, Ged spoke the shadow's name and in the same moment the shadow spoke without lips or tongue, saying the same word: "Ged." And the two voices were one voice.
Ged reached out his hands, dropping his staff and took hold of his shadow, of the black self that reached out to him. Light and darkness met, and joined, and were one.
Good lord what a powerful statement. It changed how I thought of myself and my hardships and how I dealt with parts of myself I didn't like.
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