Venting overwhelm rambling

[ultrafuntimes]

Possessions make me anxious. I try to declutter and organize things but it's never enough. I feel physically nauseous. I just want to burn everything. I want to destroy it all. I need to get out of my skin. I want it all to go away. It's not even just physical items. Emails, documents, accounts, contacts, my identity, it's too overwhelming.

I have things that I want to keep and "need" but if something happened where I had to pack a bag and leave immediately, I wouldn't know what to bring. It's extremely unlikely a situation like that would happen, but I can't shake the feeling.

I don't know if anything I'm saying is comprehensible. I try to perfectly organize my thoughts into words but everything comes out sounding stupid. I try to talk as little as possible. It takes me sometimes hours to respond over text because I have to construct the perfect response, usually I just get too frustrated and end up not saying anything at all. It eats me alive. I know immediately after posting this I will keep rechecking it every 5 seconds for grammar or spelling mistakes. I am so afraid of what others might think about me, it is paralyzing. I don't know why I'm like this.

 

[Deleted member 8975]

Stuff is overwhelming. I prefer minimalism.

 

[PreussenBlueJay]

That obsessive thinking sounds like what geniuses struggle with. Sometimes I wonder if a possession of mine was stolen but I don't remember that I owned it in the first place so I don't know that it's gone or what it was because I haven't seen it. For responding over text you might be better off consciously under thinking your response in order to compensate the overthinking.

 

[CogitoMori]

I hate how much clutter is in my house. My partner is going to inpatient soon so I'm going to spend some time getting rid of some stuff that we didn't even want but my mom insisted on getting us anyways, donating clothes that don't fit, filing or getting rid of documents, and trying to use up as many of my craft supplies as I can. Ironically I like knick knacks and collections, but I'm sick of holding onto things I don't enjoy just because they're gifted to me.