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Breadbfra

Breadbfra

Arcanist
Jul 16, 2020
400
Hi everyone,

Given the fact that I've basically decided tò CTB in months or so, I was thinking: how do I get over the fact that I would severely hurt my relatives, Friends, girlfriend by killing myself? I have two loving parents and I know they wouldn't have any reason tò keep going besides me, and a girlfriend that already said "if I Lost you I would kill myself too".
Even ketamine treatments don't work so I basically lost at living.
What do you recommend?
It's literally my only reason that keeps me going these months.
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
831
I keep going for sake of my family and friends.
 
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theolivanderroach

theolivanderroach

but, what ends when the symbols shatter?
Sep 20, 2024
192
For me, I don't care. They'll move on in life (as they should) or they will harm themselves or CTB too. That's their decision not mine. I told a friend about my CTB plans (mistake) and she said she will kill herself if I do. I don't believe her even though she has attempted in the past. I'm not going to be guilted into suffering for decades more. That would be her decision if my death causes her that much pain. I told her that.

I now have two friends who have CTB. Yes their deaths caused me pain, but I respect their choice and my choice has nothing to do with them. I truly believe people who say they will kill themselves too are just trying to guilt trip you.
 
Dot

Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
3,351
Hi everyone,

Given the fact that I've basically decided tò CTB in months or so, I was thinking: how do I get over the fact that I would severely hurt my relatives, Friends, girlfriend by killing myself? I have two loving parents and I know they wouldn't have any reason tò keep going besides me, and a girlfriend that already said "if I Lost you I would kill myself too".
Even ketamine treatments don't work so I basically lost at living.
What do you recommend?
It's literally my only reason that keeps me going these months.

Hve u defntly lookd in2 all recvry optns
 
dingokettle3531

dingokettle3531

Member
Mar 26, 2023
77
Hi everyone,

Given the fact that I've basically decided tò CTB in months or so, I was thinking: how do I get over the fact that I would severely hurt my relatives, Friends, girlfriend by killing myself? I have two loving parents and I know they wouldn't have any reason tò keep going besides me, and a girlfriend that already said "if I Lost you I would kill myself too".
Even ketamine treatments don't work so I basically lost at living.
What do you recommend?
It's literally my only reason that keeps me going these months.
I make sure to take care of them before I'm gone, try to make them happy enough so the hit won't be as tough. I've done that with my best friend as I highly worry about him and don't want him to end it no matter how tough things get, even though I know he's in a rough situation and I'm one of the few people close to him so..
Not a guarantee anyway and all I can do is hope that me being so hopeless gives him the strength to continue, for both of us
 

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