unique pumpkin
I was born like this
- Oct 29, 2025
- 5
This is probably going to be a long one .
Ever since I can remember, I wanted not to exist it was too much for me , I could never understand anyone neither could they understand me . It really was like hell, even though I'm not very beautiful (I don't like to use the word handsome) I did find two lovers , and both of them were amazing but still even though i was in love and all , I always felt like they never understood me , so I had to let loose of them and not waste their time.
Then this year I met someone ( well not entirely new) for I knew her from my school,but yk people change and so did she . Ah well I texted her but I didn't exactly tell her it was me for I was scared of coming out as being weird for just texting her out of the blue . (And it really was out of the blue ). Well as we talked ( for some reason she kept talking not knowing who I was ) and I came to know all the things about her that I had no idea of and God! I wanted just to hug her, maybe she kept talking to me because she was too lonely. She wrote these poems , drew , read all these books that I wanted to talk about with someone.
But then few days ago I didn't remember how many days have passed since , she completely deleted her account. And around this time I had gathered up the courage to tell her that it was me despite embarrassment. And that account was the only way for me to talk to her , and now with each passing day I regret not having told her.
I go to her favourite place every day now just to feel like her , And now I feel like floating around as if my roots having been plucked out from the ground, this was the only person I felt could understand me and now that even she is gone into oblivion ; no longer there is any hope .
( Pardon me for all the grammatical errors or whatever , I'm not really apt at saying stuff and whatever whatever)
Ever since I can remember, I wanted not to exist it was too much for me , I could never understand anyone neither could they understand me . It really was like hell, even though I'm not very beautiful (I don't like to use the word handsome) I did find two lovers , and both of them were amazing but still even though i was in love and all , I always felt like they never understood me , so I had to let loose of them and not waste their time.
Then this year I met someone ( well not entirely new) for I knew her from my school,but yk people change and so did she . Ah well I texted her but I didn't exactly tell her it was me for I was scared of coming out as being weird for just texting her out of the blue . (And it really was out of the blue ). Well as we talked ( for some reason she kept talking not knowing who I was ) and I came to know all the things about her that I had no idea of and God! I wanted just to hug her, maybe she kept talking to me because she was too lonely. She wrote these poems , drew , read all these books that I wanted to talk about with someone.
But then few days ago I didn't remember how many days have passed since , she completely deleted her account. And around this time I had gathered up the courage to tell her that it was me despite embarrassment. And that account was the only way for me to talk to her , and now with each passing day I regret not having told her.
I go to her favourite place every day now just to feel like her , And now I feel like floating around as if my roots having been plucked out from the ground, this was the only person I felt could understand me and now that even she is gone into oblivion ; no longer there is any hope .
( Pardon me for all the grammatical errors or whatever , I'm not really apt at saying stuff and whatever whatever)
