Now I'm considering jumping.

[deck of cards]

I was originally going for the sn method, but after I read @Moonicide account(may she rest in peace), it seems like I'll be making a lot of noise during the dying process. This can't happen because my parents are just outside my room.
Now I'm considering jumping, which I attempted multiple times before. But every time I stand on the edge, my survival instincts just kick in and I'm unable to jump.
Anyone have any good ideas on how to overcome this survival instinct? I'm very sure I want to die. I have a lot of benzos at my disposal (xanax, Rohypnol , klonopin). Maybe those could help?

 

[max6802]

Or just get super drunk

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

it seems like I'll be making a lot of noise during the dying process.

Did you consider put loud music? That's what I'm gonna do. So my neighbours can't hear.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

Or just get super drunk

That don't work either, well not always, been there, still here!!! SI can be over come, its just getting your mind in the right place. I did it once before and Ill do it again, Jumping takes a lot of balls though,
Ill never forget looking down into the water far below, the sense of freedom, the thought that my own life right then was finally in my full control, SI wasn't an issue I was ready to go,
People though, people, that's why I am still here, interfering people! eurgh!