Venting nothing is working

[c4di]

i used to hold on by some unhealthy coping mechanisms, but they aren't really working anymore. i dont know how i did it, it feels like i have nothing to do right now except think about suicide, it feels so empty. im going to CTB anyway but i want something to help me a bit for the while im still here. even suicide is starting to feel like something imaginary not something people actually succeeded in doing. i dont feel human anymore

 

[deadmanwalking1990]

Even when im actively doing something,i still think about CTB,its too hard man

 

[itsgone2]

It sucks when there's nothing left. Music, tv, books… can't enjoy any of that now. Thoughts dominated by how life has gone so wrong.

 

[Vlad Tepes]

Yeah, me too. For many years I used silly coping mechanisms that I recognized were cope but which I nevertheless consciously clung on to because I was terrified of death. I think a lot of people today are stuck in that trap where they realize theyre literally gaslighting themselves into struggling along because theyre too scared of the alternative, death, but they nevertheless do so anyway because self-gaslighting is a lot less haunting of a prospect to them than the great void of death.