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maplebar

maplebar

I try to be a decent person
Feb 21, 2025
46
Feel's like I am in a waiting room, or something. I'm so bored of everything, I don't even like doing what I used to take joy in. None of my friends even want to talk to me. I don't know if I really want to talk to them though, so I can't blame them too much. Honestly, I am just waiting for something to happen to me. A reckless driver, a murderous person on the street, a poisoned drink, something!
 
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peacecomingsoon

peacecomingsoon

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Dec 28, 2025
67
I feel you. Nothing I used to do and love takes my interest anymore. Also feels like I'm in a waiting room, just waiting for death to come and take me away and end all this madness. Endless waiting and nothing comes, nothing gets better or happens.

It's a strange feeling and I hope it improves for you.
 
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dragonofenvy

dragonofenvy

Wizard
Oct 8, 2023
682
There's a part of me that almost wishes that I'd have to deal with an attacker or something just to feel like something happened even though I know it would be terrible if it did. I'm so sick of every day being Groundhog Day.
 
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maplebar

maplebar

I try to be a decent person
Feb 21, 2025
46
There's a part of me that almost wishes that I'd have to deal with an attacker or something just to feel like something happened even though I know it would be terrible if it did. I'm so sick of every day being Groundhog Day.
"Groundhog Day" Exactly. Couldn't have worded it any better!
 
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humaneyes__

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Aug 27, 2022
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A reckless driver, a murderous person on the street, a poisoned drink, something
i live in a locale with a fair amount of gun violence and none of it is targeted at me, much to my chagrin. like "come on guys im ready to die and im a slow target, what gives"
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,233
Limbo is hell, I've been in it for years. The only thing to look forward to is getting the fuck outta here.
 
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Gabbi_Station

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Jul 30, 2024
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I feel you. Nothing I used to do and love takes my interest anymore. Also feels like I'm in a waiting room, just waiting for death to come and take me away and end all this madness. Endless waiting and nothing comes, nothing gets better or happens.

It's a strange feeling and I hope it improves for you.
That's funny, because I was basically thinking the same exact thing just an hour ago!

I just feel like life is "going through the motions". I just go through the same routines, same family dramas, same boredom and despair every day. Rinse. Repeat. Hope something exciting will happen- apply to other jobs. Apply to programs and internships. Try to change my mindset.

Yet I always end up back where I started. Staring at my phone. Reading a book. Contemplating ctb. Hating my life but feel trapped in it, no matter how much I want it to change.

Nothing feels like it matters or will ever matter. Nothing in my life ever gets just a little bit better to make it all tolerable.
 
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maplebar

maplebar

I try to be a decent person
Feb 21, 2025
46
Yet I always end up back where I started. Staring at my phone. Reading a book. Contemplating ctb. Hating my life but feel trapped in it, no matter how much I want it to change.
That's basically what I do all day too. This sucks, doesn't it? 🫤
 
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eggsausagerice

eggsausagerice

last chance for cake!
Apr 21, 2025
1,035
i get so annoyed when my mom says something overly paranoid or neurotic because she thinks it's dangerous to be by myself at night, when i've never gotten hurt, stabbed, or shot by anyone yet. she just watches too much fearmongering news slop and thinks the whole world is like that, when nothing actually happens if your town is boring enough. she's so paranoid that it makes me wish that the world really is as dangerous as she thinks it is. i just want someone to see me and think i look easy to kill. i feel like people would just try to steal my phone or my wallet instead of kill me, because you don't get anything if you just murder someone.
 
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Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
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Gabbi_Station

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Jul 30, 2024
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That's basically what I do all day too. This sucks, doesn't it? 🫤
Yup. That's the worst thing about modern society- people scream at you about "being depressed"… yet modernity is objectively fucking depressing.

My entire life anymore is work… and I don't even have the past benefits to show for it.
 
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parnassius_mnemosyn

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Jan 18, 2026
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Feel's like I am in a waiting room, or something. I'm so bored of everything, I don't even like doing what I used to take joy in. None of my friends even want to talk to me. I don't know if I really want to talk to them though, so I can't blame them too much. Honestly, I am just waiting for something to happen to me. A reckless driver, a murderous person on the street, a poisoned drink, something!
I have been thinking about this so much. It seems the only exciting thing left to do is to see what happens when you die. But I am a bit of a pussy.
Also, unrelated, but I love the way this post is written. I've never thought of comparing the way I feel to being stuck in a waiting room, it's so apt
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,046
I wish I were bored. Everything is unbearably painful
 
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Cyc

Cyc

It's my fight.
Jan 22, 2026
110
This is so relatable. I've lost interest in nearly everything, I don't understand how people can have hobbies or passions
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,046
I wish I were bored. Everything is unbearably painful
For me, everything is interesting, I'm just not up to it. All I feel is envy at people who can do cool stuff and shame that I can't.
 
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fallen.dove

fallen.dove

hopeless ☆.࣪⋆
Jan 24, 2026
46
i feel u.. days are just passing and nothing happens. absolutely nothing. it sucks
 
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hiAbbey

hiAbbey

All’s well that ends pretty prettyy prettyyy soon
Sep 30, 2021
48
Feel's like I am in a waiting room, or something. I'm so bored of everything, I don't even like doing what I used to take joy in. None of my friends even want to talk to me. I don't know if I really want to talk to them though, so I can't blame them too much. Honestly, I am just waiting for something to happen to me. A reckless driver, a murderous person on the street, a poisoned drink, something!
Same…
 
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