Note your level of mental distress now

[sulvumnolo]

Fuck the worst I've ever experienced. I can't stop shaking and crying rn

 

[MourningFlower]

9/10. Making my arrangements and saying my silent goodbyes. It's been an experience.

 

[InTheAbyss]

Between 9/10 to 10/10. A lot of bad things happened last night and today. I'm really stressed now.

 

[wishingiwasok]

This is me too, definitely.

Me too.
7/10. I think the bad stuff would be easier to weather without so much distress if it didn't make me hate myself so much. If I didn't feel like my choices are to hide my pain and let it fester or be attacked for my weakness.

 

[acerace]

8/10 my meds stopped working I feel like absolute shit I didn't sleep tonight I don't want to do anything today but I have too many responsibilities. I don't know why but when I feel suicidal or anxious I start having this weird like heavy feeling in my chest. Even if I'm not thinking about it its just there weighing me down. It sounds so dumb like why would my chest hurt but Idk it does and then I start thinking about suicide. Sorry I'm rambling I been posting a lot today cuz I need a distraction and its nice to be able to talk about it without someone trying to lock me up. Maybe something is wrong with me even with drugs and alcohol I'm still sober I don't understand why my brain does this do me its such a stupid tiny thing but its ruins my fucking life. I wish I could just be a robot. I feel like I'm developing OCD I don't know but its driving me crazy everything needs to be perfect I have to redo everything a thousand times and I tell myself to stop but I cant like why cant I just be normal actually why cant I just be dead. I wish it worked last time. I was so close but I don't think it will ever work.

 

[krsm98]

abou 9/10 or 10/10
the level of exhaustion i feel is unbearable and having episode of complete breakdown doesnt help anything as i just ruin everything by losing my mind and just suffer for everything that is lost now, and just wish it wasnt this way but its too late, and i keep trying but apprently its never enough haha, ig im just incompetent at even trying at all. A joke of a person ive become and just waiting for the moment it will all end

 

[Strangerdanger7]

8/10 probs. I keep pathologising my behaviour. Makes me sad. I think i deserve to die. Or I don't deserve to be alive, rather. i know everything will be much better once i am finally buried. And idk if people will necessarily be happy, because I don't think they care that much. But they will probably just say 'oh we saw that coming haha what a loser' and then just forget about me probably. Which is kinda th goal actuallly. I just want to be forgotten. I don't want to overthink every single interaction i have with someone. All I do is feel crap about my past. And since i got doxxed , I just wanna die. I just want so badly to be buried in the ground and i want my body to decay and my flesh to rot off my bones and the maggots to eat my organs. I wanna die so bad it is the only way everything will be ok lowkey. Anyway I went too far sorry. Im just bleh. I

People do not realize fight for the right to die only affects the one who should have a choice to do so. It should be legal were not requiring you to participate unless it's of your choosing. We all deserve that choice.

 

[nitrogenous]

8/10 I really wanna ctb rn but I know I won't do it tonight. Life is falling apart, and I will be homeless in a week or two, unless there's a miracle or something like that. I really hate everything and I just want everything to end. I was meant to commit last week, but didn't end up doing so as I got too drowsy and ended up sleeping the night before my preferred time to ctb. Since last week, nothing has changed, if any, life kept on getting worse and worse. Why can't I just die in my sleep already?

 

[Strangerdanger7]

Where the level of too much on my mind and annoyed. Where the level of i'd rather do it my way and say to heck with it all. A few things to deal with but a mental break from people is a must. I gotta isolate to reboot my mental battery.
7 out of 10

 

[Guy0117]

6-8/10

 

[GremlinCan56]

8/10 I really wanna ctb rn but I know I won't do it tonight. Life is falling apart, and I will be homeless in a week or two, unless there's a miracle or something like that. I really hate everything and I just want everything to end. I was meant to commit last week, but didn't end up doing so as I got too drowsy and ended up sleeping the night before my preferred time to ctb. Since last week, nothing has changed, if any, life kept on getting worse and worse. Why can't I just die in my sleep already?

So relatable. I'm also about to lose everything in my situation, and I also kept falling asleep and changing my mind due to SI when I wake up.
8.5-9/10

I feel thoroughly done, exhausted.

 

[AR02]

6/10. I'm slowly fading away, realizing that I have little ambition and motivation in life.

 

[Defenestration]

3

 

[zdeweilx]

9/10

 

[Defenestration]

9/10

Whats happen??

 

[zdeweilx]

Whats happen??

I'm thinking about many things that are hurting me intensely at once

 

[grungy自殺]

9/10

It's nearing my birthday so it makes to me

 

[Rainork]

7/10
It was a lot higher, knowing this pain will end soon has brought it down a bit but the stress of keeping up a facade to those around me every day is keeping it high (I don't like lying)

 

[Defenestration]

7 ....because of borderline personnality disorder

 

[thefarter]

my brain is not spiralling rn so im at like 3. :3 yaaaaay

 

[bipolar22]

9out od 10 today . But Horrible day though. Some magesium capsules gave me some type of intestinal blockage thought I migh have to go to the ER. Soo needed 10 mg ativan to stop the suffering when I was almost finished tapering off compelty. Feeling good now but imma pay for it with intrest later. Really asswhopping of a day. Can't lie

 

[LakeMungoGirl]

7

 

[Passenger4224]

1/10 distress
10/10 despair

I decided on a day and so tired of waiting for it. The worst part is still living like I have a future. I really want to spend my last month relaxing and just doing whatever I want, but I have to keep pretending there's nothing wrong.

Trying to cope by doing more research and preparation.

 

[Unsure and Useless]

10/10

I want to CTB so badly but I'm scared I'm gonna fuck it up like I do everything else in life

 

[Steve Vermont]

6/10

 

[SmigSauer]

I spent most of the day moping around, as per usual. I then tried to do some of my hobbies to take my mind off of things, and all that did was frustrate me even more for being terrible at my hobbies (can't play guitar, bad at video games, etc.)

And so I tried to cry out of sheer frustration. But I haven't cried in over 5 years, I don't think I am emotionally capable of crying. I just don't see a point in trying to achieve anything when I hate myself as much as I do. I have hated myself in every way since I was a child. I need to be exterminated.

 

[horseshoefalls]

8/10

 

[Yugi55]

7/10. Although I am in a pretty chill phase of my life that doesn't mean all problems will magically go away

 

[Defenestration]

7/10. Although I am in a pretty chill phase of my life that doesn't mean all problems will magically go away

Exactly even if i know that is less difficult...suffer is

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

2