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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,900
Note your level of mental distress each day.

now: 8/10

You can explain or just give /10
 
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Exhausted546

Experienced
Dec 1, 2025
274
2/10

I'm not mentally distressed,I'm just tired and not willing to put the effort to better my situation, I'll die in the upcoming week. Hopefully tomorrow
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,900
2/10

Je ne suis pas en détresse psychologique, je suis juste fatigué et je n'ai pas la force de faire l'effort d'améliorer ma situation. Je vais mourir la semaine prochaine. J'espère demain.
Woow very brave
 
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kunikuzushi

kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
586
8/10

I hate this moment of existence and can barely handle the pain. But I've felt worse.
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,900
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itsgone2

-
Sep 21, 2025
1,206
10/10

Not trying to be dramatic. Very serious. It's crippling. My life has stopped
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,900
10/10

Not trying to be dramatic. Very serious. It's crippling. My life has stopped
🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂
Ooooh

I am borderline ans bipolar 😞
emotions can change very quickly...
Things hurt more than for a healthy person
 
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thefarter

thefarter

i don’t smoke
Dec 10, 2025
99
8/10 probs. I keep pathologising my behaviour. Makes me sad. I think i deserve to die. Or I don't deserve to be alive, rather. i know everything will be much better once i am finally buried. And idk if people will necessarily be happy, because I don't think they care that much. But they will probably just say 'oh we saw that coming haha what a loser' and then just forget about me probably. Which is kinda th goal actuallly. I just want to be forgotten. I don't want to overthink every single interaction i have with someone. All I do is feel crap about my past. And since i got doxxed , I just wanna die. I just want so badly to be buried in the ground and i want my body to decay and my flesh to rot off my bones and the maggots to eat my organs. I wanna die so bad 🤲 it is the only way everything will be ok lowkey. Anyway I went too far sorry. Im just bleh. I
 
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tzon

tzon

Hesitant
Dec 27, 2025
19
5 / 10 maybe, so not too bad right now. Maybe because I'm getting tired. It's soon time for some sleep.
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,014
10/10 I'm at the point where I'll do just about anything to kill myself
 
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TheEmptyVoid

TheEmptyVoid

Specialist
Jun 18, 2025
352
5/10

I am not very distressed but I am just wanting to die, I am overly sensitive to even the littlest offensive things and just generally feel like life is pointless. And I am just waiting for the perfect time to ctb so no one can save me before I die.
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,900
Sinon
5/10

Je ne suis pas vraiment angoissée, mais je veux juste mourir. Je suis hypersensible à la moindre offense et j'ai l'impression que la vie n'a aucun sens. J'attends le moment idéal pour mettre fin à mes jours, pour que personne ne puisse me sauver avant ma mort.
Moi aussi, sans aucun doute.
Me too and i am borderline...so* 100
 
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Arb

Arb

Ready for what comes after death
Mar 24, 2023
164
9/10 realising it doesn't matter what the truth of what happened to me and my friends are, the guy who committed those acts of predation is popular and is always gonna have defenders
 
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inkmage333

inkmage333

please just free me and let me die
Feb 18, 2025
113
7/10, I feel empty which in itself is adding to the distress
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,233
0/10 I've let my shit go on for way too long. I've become completely emotionally numb. Must be a defense mechanism. My life's really bad rn I should be freaking out.
 
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Lady_V

Lady_V

Please be honest.
Aug 31, 2025
232
1.5/10. Just vibing with true crime and lil smoked weenies.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Visionary
May 10, 2025
2,549
10/10
I suffer from CPTSD
 
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SchizoPolyGymnast

SchizoPolyGymnast

Elementalist
May 28, 2024
808
2/10

I'm making party plans and my indecisiveness and my anxiety are sucking the fun out of it.
 
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socksnsandles

Experienced
Oct 7, 2025
243
2/10
 
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maylurker

Experienced
Dec 28, 2025
275
6/10
 
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venerated-vader

venerated-vader

Finger Guns(tm)
Mar 11, 2025
185
5/10

NPD-related bullshit
 
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sanctionedusage

sanctioned sausage
Sep 17, 2025
476
3/10
hungry
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,012
Always 10, every second is torturous to be conscious and I just always suffer so much as a result of the dreadful, painful and deeply undesirable abomination of existence that just tortures existing beings all for the sake of it, existence to me will always be the most terrible mistake that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

I just always suffer so much from being enslaved in this horrific, evil world where wanting permanent peace is a crime, to so tragically impose this existence and deny the option to painlessly cease existing even know this torturous, futile existence was never worth it to me in the first place will always be criminal to me. I just always suffer as a result of existing and I'll suffer until I'm at true eternal peace with all gone and forgotten, all I want is to be permanently unconscious with no more pain and no more suffering, I find it terrifying how a human can suffer in this horrific reality for decades longer tortured by this existence just to face the agony of old age, it's just all so terrible, to exist means to suffer and the suffering this existence causes is endless, for me only non-existence is positive, in this existence so evil that causes all this torture, harm and suffering I only see beauty in non-existence where finally I can be at peace.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,537
3/10.

I'm relatively numb and lazy right now. Just the usual: lack of work worries, guilt about being lazy and not doing my chores, annoyance about being alive and frustration at having to wait to kill myself. The usual background noise.
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,900
N0w 7/10
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,900
Now 1/10
 
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Exhausted546

Experienced
Dec 1, 2025
274
At 4/10, about to attempt in 2ish hours, was gonna attempt even if I was at 1/10, does that make me unusual?
 
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