Does anyone else feel like this? Like you've decided that ctb is the best option and nothing can change your mind? Like... Regardless if the improvements that can happen its not worth it? And the improvements that can make it worth it maybe are never going to happen(like becoming cis) Just me?
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Bitcoin (BTC):Ethereum (ETH):Monero (XMR):Same. Social workers have been meeting with me but honestly it's pointless, I'm not willing to do the stenuous amount of effort to potentially better my situation a little bit. I've been struggling for a decade and don't have any fight left in me,enough is enough. Not signing up for another 10 years of learned helplessness
FamilialBlackSheep
Free me from this cruel world
- Aug 19, 2025
- 22
I get what you mean exactly, I don't see a path where I'm rid of how I feel and think it would be much easier just to not delay the inevitable any longer.
Kazu Ha
Weird, lonely German Guy
- Jul 26, 2025
- 71
Yeah, same.
I don't see any hope anymore. I don't feel understood either. Even therapy didn't help me in the past.
I've just been delaying it, and my condition is getting worse and worse, especially since I lost my last two best friends.
inkmage333
please just free me and let me die
- Feb 18, 2025
- 116
Feeling this as well, literally nothing will improve the way I feel and I've tried explaining this to people. No one listens.
kuroshimi
If you're not remembered, then you never existed.
- Dec 1, 2025
- 236
Feeling the same way?
I'm so used to my condition that any change will seem unnatural. I simply just don't see any point in recovery. On the other hand, maybe it worth trying a therapy, since it helped once when I was in it.Yes. Mostly from my experience of life. That the things I worked hard to achieve and get, weren't usually worth the effort. So- that doesn't motivate me to keep trying. If anything, I'm enjoying the feeling of letting go. No longer pushing myself to do things I find difficult and uncomfortable (mainly relating to social anxiety and lack of confidence) to chase towards that golden carrot on the stick.
I'm more resigned to just dreading water until I no longer need to. (Waiting for my Dad to go first.)
If it makes you feel better maybe you should. If you end up staying you feel better and if not you leave with a bit less painSimilar threads
