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SighCry

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May 15, 2026
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I don't know how to explain it but I just know I'm not supposed to ever age beyond my 30s. Like, I am simply not meant to be a 40 year old, 50 year old, 60 year old... I'm not supposed to do any of the things that people expect us to do (marriage, kids etc). I'm not supposed to be here for when my parents die. I'm not supposed to have real adult like responsibilities and problems. I may be young but I have lived a very fulfilled life up until now. I do not have anything else that I want to achieve.
 
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Spite

Spite

I wish I never existed.
Aug 20, 2025
528
Yeah I've felt similarly and thoughts like this have been more intense than ever lately. I'm nearly 30 and I'm surprised I've lived as long as I have. I'd be genuinely shocked if I was still alive to see myself turn 40...
 
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CarbonBased

The Nothing
Jun 18, 2026
92
I'm also young, but I have heard many stories from people who thought this way and then actually did turn 30, 40, and so on. I can relate to not wanting to achieve anything, though. Unlike many people on this website, I don't consider myself a loser or a failure. I think I could achieve whatever I want (within reason), but I just really see no point. I struggle to imagine a life that is worth living
 
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Bishop

Bishop

People die the way they lived
Mar 24, 2024
513
I'm also young, but I have heard many stories from people who thought this way and then actually did turn 30, 40, and so on. I can relate to not wanting to achieve anything, though. Unlike many people on this website, I don't consider myself a loser or a failure. I think I could achieve whatever I want (within reason), but I just really see no point. I struggle to imagine a life that is worth living
Same here
 
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thelostautistic

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Jul 31, 2025
604
I feel similarly. I genuinely can't see myself becoming 30 years old. I see myself dying in my twenties. Tbh I'm shocked I even made it to my twenties.
 
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JeyJeyOfJeypore

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Jun 4, 2026
339
Whats so bad about 30? Just another number
All of those things you mentioned are societys expectations, i say fuck em
 
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JoeFailure

Wizard
Apr 29, 2019
648
I thought that about 40, but here I am. Unfortunately.
 
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SighCry

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May 15, 2026
67
Whats so bad about 30? Just another number
All of those things you mentioned are societys expectations, i say fuck em
30 is fine, haha it's more like 40+. Like you're properly an adult at that point.
 
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JeyJeyOfJeypore

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Jun 4, 2026
339
30 is fine, haha it's more like 40+. Like you're properly an adult at that point.
still fuck em at 40. If you cant fulfill the expectations thats societys fault not yours
 
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peacebenow

Too much has happened.
Apr 26, 2026
479
30s are young. Hopefully you will change perspective.
 
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somethingisntreal

somethingisntreal

Live, Laugh, Larp
Aug 30, 2025
286
I cant imagine myself going beyond 30 either. If i somehow live until then its gonna be really tragic. I've pushed my deadline to age 30 now. I got to do it before i hit my 30s at any cost.
 
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SighCry

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May 15, 2026
67
30s are young. Hopefully you will change perspective.
That is true but sometimes as a woman I don't think it is. Like you are expected to have children before 35, marriage, settle down etc. Those kind of events feel like an older person's responsibility.
 
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peacebenow

Too much has happened.
Apr 26, 2026
479
That is true but sometimes as a woman I don't think it is. Like you are expected to have children before 35, marriage, settle down etc. Those kind of events feel like an older person's responsibility.
I am a woman. Those expectations are somewhat outdated and can differ depending on circumstances.
 
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JeyJeyOfJeypore

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Jun 4, 2026
339
That is true but sometimes as a woman I don't think it is. Like you are expected to have children before 35, marriage, settle down etc. Those kind of events feel like an older person's responsibility.
Ya that sucks
45 is a biological dead date for girls
Maybe there is ways to be able to bear children after 45?
Never looked into it myself cuz im a guy
 
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bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
694
I feel this way too. It's honestly a miracle if I somehow manage to make it even close to 30.
 
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

There's someone in my head but it's not me
Oct 21, 2024
706
When I was younger I always said I didn't want to live past 50.... Sadly at 56, I'm still here.
 
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whisperedaway

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Apr 17, 2026
12
Strangely I felt more dread about turning 20.... like that was so much worse than turning 30 for me, no longer being a teenager. Still remember how family could tell something was off about me before my 20th. I'd had so many life events thrown at me by my late 20s that I wasn't as phased by 30. Don't know how I will feel about 40 though, lol.
 
Hefinator

Hefinator

Member
Nov 19, 2025
19
I don't know how to explain it but I just know I'm not supposed to ever age beyond my 30s. Like, I am simply not meant to be a 40 year old, 50 year old, 60 year old... I'm not supposed to do any of the things that people expect us to do (marriage, kids etc). I'm not supposed to be here for when my parents die. I'm not supposed to have real adult like responsibilities and problems. I may be young but I have lived a very fulfilled life up until now. I do not have anything else that I want to achieve.
I relate heavily.
 

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