Not good enough

[Nanimoaru]

There are certain things I'll never be good at. Romance is one of them. I'll never be good enough or smart enough or pretty enough.
And it's so damn painful. I just wanted someone to love me like I love them but according to God and the fates that's too much to grant. I made up my mind. When my 2 year clause on my life insurance is up. I'm gone

 

[Time2Go?]

When I was 21 I purchased life insurance (to help my parents if something happened to me) that covered suicide, with the two year clause. I have never let it lapse. Unfortunately my situation has changed since then and when I purchased more life insurance I couldn't get the suicide clause in there. Now if I decide to go through with it I have to have an "accident". Much more difficult situation.

I'm sorry that you are feeling like this is your only option. I can sympathize with you. It seems like whenever I think I find the right person, either I funk it up or I find out they were just using me for something other than love. I am sending warm thoughts and hugs your way.

Mattie

 

[Nanimoaru]

When I was 21 I purchased life insurance (to help my parents if something happened to me) that covered suicide, with the two year clause. I have never let it lapse. Unfortunately my situation has changed since then and when I purchased more life insurance I couldn't get the suicide clause in there. Now if I decide to go through with it I have to have an "accident". Much more difficult situation.

I'm sorry that you are feeling like this is your only option. I can sympathize with you. It seems like whenever I think I find the right person, either I funk it up or I find out they were just using me for something other than love. I am sending warm thoughts and hugs your way.

Mattie

I just wanted to love me but it was foolish of me to believe that person exists. Someone to hold hands with and walk this world with. Someone who could possibly make this world liveable.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

There are certain things I'll never be good at. Romance is one of them. I'll never be good enough or smart enough or pretty enough.
And it's so damn painful. I just wanted someone to love me like I love them but according to God and the fates that's too much to grant. I made up my mind. When my 2 year clause on my life insurance is up. I'm gone

I feel the same … It sucks being Dumb & Ugly.
Maybe Khalid could rewrite his song to Young, Dumb & Ugly ;)
I suck at Romance/ Relationships. I've given up on that.

 

[Nanimoaru]

I feel the same … It sucks being Dumb & Ugly.
Maybe Khalid could rewrite his song to Young, Dumb & Ugly ;)
I suck at Romance/ Relationships. I've given up on that.

I plan on cutting the words "NOT GOOD ENOUGH " in my arm to remind me never to hope for this again

 

[lv-gras]

I plan on cutting the words "NOT GOOD ENOUGH " in my arm to remind me never to hope for this again

cutting can be nice for some people, but maybe you might want to think of other stuff to write that you'd rather look at later, something cooler

 

[Nanimoaru]

cutting can be nice for some people, but maybe you might want to think of other stuff to write that you'd rather look at later, something cooler

I want to remind myself noone will want me

 

[bigj75]

Why do you consider yourself not good enough?

 

[Nanimoaru]

Why do you consider yourself not good enough?

Because this always happens

 

[bigj75]

Because this always happens

You did your best though. I feel the same way.

 

[Nanimoaru]

My best is never good enough and it never has been.

 

[bigj75]

My best is never good enough and it never has been.

it's not your fault though.

 

[Nanimoaru]

it's not your fault though.

Yes it is. I'm good enough to fuck and fool around with but not date love or marry. What's it matter anyway we're all gonna ctb soon anyway