need help with ctb

[cosidaes]

I've been making attempts since I was around 9 years old, I've just turned 20 and I'm always upset and only think about dying, because I really have nothing to be happy about.
The other day I tried electrocuting myself with my toaster in the bath but it didn't work and I came out completely unharmed other than a cut on my finger and some buzzing in my legs.
I've made maybe over 100 cuts over my arms since august and no amount of bleeding has helped.
I've also tried over dosing on various medications at least a few times in a year since I was 12 and nothing has worked.

I'm looking for something that won't permanently deform me so no burning or shooting myself or whatever, would like to try within my own home so I don't bother other people and also no good buildings to jump where I live.
Please help if you can, and please don't try and offer alternatives to suicide I'm not interested, nothing here to live for.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Please stop wasting your time trying to OD.

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