My family is far away and I don't have any friends to watch him until they get here :/ I wouldn't want him there either in case he can sense it, he already is being very cuddly and seems upset because of my mood, and I've been tieing up old loose ends with people and theyve noticed and are worried so I don't know how to handle my dog, boarding wouldnt work because they probably won't get here right away and I can't afford to board him for a week it's quite expensive
My roommate is back in town the end of the month, I don't think I can hold on that long. They will take care of them to honor me, or my late partners family will take him in because they have my partners dog, we got them from the same litter on the same day. And theyre family for another dog from that litter too. He won't be put down or abandoned. The people who love me know his love and life if very important to me so he'll be ok just not wanting to leave him without care for days or anything
Umm, so I was confused about you saying that your roommate "is back in town the end of the month" which is tomorrow, where I'm at. So I looked at your posting history and saw that you just started posting here two days ago and that you said you were going to start a course of TMS and that Xanax had been helping you (but keep in mind that Xanax is short acting, unlike a benzo anti-seizure drug like Klonopin/clonazepam, which is long-acting, and which I'm mentioning since you are clearly not feeling like you did two days ago).
Have you tried taking more of the Xanax? I take clonazepam. If you took some Xanax right now, it sounds like it's possible your mood might change, given what you said about it helping you. Also, can I ask why you changed your mind about the TMS?
And sorry to be nosy, but has anyone actually said to you that you're a "burden" AND that they would be better off without you? My mom has a martyr complex and used to majorly act like I was a burden, even though my dad was the one who was helping me with things I couldn't do anymore. And when she wouldn't accommodate one of my needs one time, I had to resort to threatening to off myself. THAT was when she caved in. Because even IF someone actually does think you're a burden, you can't assume that they would be happy if you were dead.
And since your "roommate" (boyfriend? girlfriend?) seems to be the only person in your life right now that you could possibly be a "burden" to, don't forget that they are free to break up! And trust me when I say that if you're talking about a boyfriend or girlfriend, they WOULD break up if they thought you were too much of a burden. Unmarried people with no kids in non-blood relationships simply are NOT that self-sacrificing when it comes to relationships that they feel are too much of a burden. If a person is in a relationship with you right now, it's because they WANT to be in a relationship. And no, they're not going to feel "unburdened" by you catching the bus.
Anyway, before you yell at me, trust me when I say I wish I had not read your posting history. I've got my own problems. But after reading what you wrote, I feel obligated to address what I see as some faulty thinking and an abrupt mood swing that occurred for some reason. And although you are a complete stranger, I care about what happens to you. And it's not rational to CTB until you have exhausted your treatment options.
And finally, to address one other thing you said, as a person who has an environmental science background and who used to work at environmental nonprofits, I wanted to point out that our best hope for fixing the climate crises is Kamala Harris, along with Democratic members of Congress. Joe Biden has surprised scientists with what his legislation is already accomplishing, but Kamala Harris needs to build on what he's done.
And btw, feel free to DM me if you want to talk. I am NOT a pro-lifer. I am pro-choice. But, as I said, I don't believe in catching the bus unless you have exhausted your treatment options. So if you want someone to talk to, feel free to DM me.
