My unfulfilled daydream will never let me be at peace

[Parnate]

Since more than a year I have been having the same daydream of being this one person . He is straight, neurotypical, born to rice parents and has a perfect life. There are days when my depression is better but I am still empty and hollow cause I know I will never be that person. My real life feel strange and unreal and I feel like a misfit in my life .