my suicide would be easier if i wasn't an overthinker... some people succesfully commit suicide with such little effort

[SufferingInDenmark]

my overthinking and anxiety and carefulness has had its both good and bad sides.
but the bad part about it, is that i take life too seriously, in some weird way.
for a lack of a better phrase...
i have many unfixable problems like epilepsy and i suffer everyday, but i guess i haven't 100% or million percent accepted my suicide fate yet.

but it definetely would be the best.
what gave me this thought, is because i looked at some (what i would call) CRAZY people... some party people on a party island
going insane with drugs and irresponsibility, and i kinda envyed how their brains work.
they seem to not take life seriously type shit and might die tomorrow from drugs and they're just careless.

if i acted like that, it would probably speed up my death.
i would never do drugs, but i'm talking about just the more casual and relaxed mentality

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Have followed your postings. As you've inferred, you've kinda been all over the map with method du jour postings. I sympathize with your troubles. Maybe everything will fall into line once you decide and commit to a method and then get all the details worked out.

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

Have followed your postings. As you've inferred, you've kinda been all over the map with method du jour postings. I sympathize with your troubles. Maybe everything will fall into line once you decide and commit to a method and then get all the details worked out.

i just don't wanna risk ending up a vegetable and i'm not in america where it's very easy to end your own pain with a gun

 

[locked*n*loaded]

i just don't wanna risk ending up a vegetable and i'm not in america where it's very easy to end your own pain with a gun

It's never easy to end your life with a gun, or any method, for that matter. Suicide is hard.

 

[amyuwu]

doing with suicide is hard, but it feels like it's inevitable. Every time I watch those videos of people hanging themselves, it seems so effortless and unintentional, and I can't help but think i wanna die that way. Maybe when they record their suicide, it's because they feel like they have to, like there's this expectation that they need to die while recording it. It's like recording a personal suicide note or something :')

 

[monetpompo]

like recording a personal suicide note or something :')

that's honestly why i want mine to be recorded, or to do a vlog kind of thing on a camcorder before i kill myself. i just wouldn't have anywhere to put my phone or camcorder when i'm done since i plan on killing myself outside. i really like found footage and being able to see videos of people that aren't around anymore, since vlogs and pictures will be the only way to remember them after that. i don't know if it would be comforting to the people that watch it or if it would make them sad. i haven't done proper photography with my cameras in ages since i'm too worried about damaging my cameras.

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

It's never easy to end your life with a gun

it's real easy with that tool compared to many other methods

never easy to end your life with a gun

which one is more difficult for a suicide method: using a gun to your own head which kills you in one second or for example jumping off a bridge?
stop lying

 

[anonymous1234554321]

it's real easy with that tool compared to many other methods

which one is more difficult for a suicide method: using a gun to your own head which kills you in one second or for example jumping off a bridge?
stop lying

I think we can say here "difficult vs extremely difficult", for most people it's quite uneasy even to press on this button, although I also think it's less difficult than jumping. But still don't think it's easy.

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

I think we can say here "difficult vs extremely difficult", for most people it's quite uneasy even to press on this button, although I also think it's less difficult than jumping. But still don't think it's easy.

obviously it's a given that suicide is hard, that was obviously also not the point. some methods are less difficult than others

although I also think it's less difficult than jumping

exactly

 

[imOK]

In one of the countless books I read about suicide (I couldn't tell you which one) I read about a mechanism an engineer devised where a gun would shoot him in the heart the moment the sun was rising, probably through some light sensor/pulley thing. I found it funny. Such an engineer thing to do.

I was actually thinking about something similar with inert gas, where you could make a setup with two tanks, one supplying oxygen, one suppling an inert gas. You could make the mechanism first make co-supply the oxygen and then randomly make it decide to switch to the inert gas 100% at some point in time, cutting the oxygen off, which would lead to your death. That way, you simply wouldn't know when exactly your end is coming. I think in my case, that might actually help with SI, as I am considering inert gas and the idea to knowlingly enter an oxygen-free enviroment does not feel easy.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

which one is more difficult for a suicide method: using a gun to your own head which kills you in one second or for example jumping off a bridge?
stop lying

WTF do you mean lying? Lying about fucking WHAT? Fucking really? First off, I don't lie about shit. Second, opinions can never be lies. Third, either firearms, or bridge jumping, bring with either of them greater SI than most other methods. Fourth, tried to be supportive with you, but when you accuse me of being a liar, for what reason I have no idea, merely for expressing opinion I guess, that support ends. Fifth, go fuck yourself!

 

[bankai]

i just don't wanna risk ending up a vegetable and i'm not in america where it's very easy to end your own pain with a gun

I doubt it's easy for the Americans either. I see many of them in the partners mega thread pleading for a way out.