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rottingangel

rottingangel

it/its • a dehumanized object
Apr 22, 2024
5
i ordered SN from DMC on jan 31 using AirBnB, and it arrived today. very inconspicuous packaging.

some part of my soul already feels at peace knowing that i have it here with me and i can proceed with my plans once i'm finished with my end-of-life preparations. i have a few things i really want to give away and letters i'd like to write, and i still have to finalize some of the small details of my protocol. (i hope to use olanzapine as an antienemic because i've already got that as a prescription, but i need to read up on dosing before the day i CTB.)

idk, i feel quite euphoric! i feel calm and at peace and happy. i will finally be able to rest soon!
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I wish you the best, I understand why you'd feel relieved, I hope you find the rest you search for.
 
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NorthernC

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Feb 12, 2025
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some part of my soul already feels at peace knowing that i have it here with me and i can proceed with my plans once i'm finished with my end-of-life preparations.

I felt the exact same way when my Nitrogen arrived earlier this week. Relief, just knowing it was there 🫂🫂🫂
 
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Languish

Languish

A Flower of Flesh and Blood
Feb 7, 2025
127
Omw to your place right now so we can have an end of life party and dance till we drop dead haha
 
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