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TheOneFreeDude

TheOneFreeDude

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Dec 8, 2024
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My girl CTB yesterday. Without her, I have no reason to live. Life is well, got a good nome and a well paying job, but none of that matters, she was my joy. I'm bawling my eyes out as I type.

She was the light of my eyes and the colour of my world.

I know it's consensus here that CTB via medications is usually the worst possible way, but hear me out;

200mg Clonazepam + 100mg diazepam + 750ml of 40% gin.

I'll finish my letter, take the alcohol (and since I'm an alcoholic used to drink even more than the amount described, that won't be a problem at all, I'll still be able to take the pills and drink the Clonazepam.

Finish letter -> Drink -> Diazepam -> Drink the Clonazepam -> Try to lay down.

GPT, which is about as reliable as asking a clerk whether a Galois group of degree-7 irreducible polynomial over the rationals is isomorphic to the simple group LSL(2,7), or just the full symmetric group (S7), told me that unless I receive medical attention, I'm almost sure to CTB.

Is there anything I'm not seeing here?
 
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getoutgirl

getoutgirl

<3
Mar 17, 2025
396
I'm so sorry for your loss thats horrible and I can't even imagine the pain you are in right now.
Overdosing with medication is usually a very bad way out and more commonly not even a successful method.
I have no idea if that combination would work, I doubt chat gpt has the slightest idea either. It usually makes stuff up to give you what you want to hear.
I would advise against it. maybe others have better imput, but still.
Even so I'll repeat myself I'm so sorry for your loss. If it was just yesterday I doubt you've ever got the time to even process it. If you want to vent or anything that makes it easier, some breathing, pleasse do. All my virtual hugs to you <3<3<3<3
 
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bankai

bankai

Enlightened
Mar 16, 2025
1,892
damn, I can't even imagine man. I'm sorry.

I would suggest looking up a better plan. you don't want to be stuck in a hospital at this stage having your freedom taken away.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,589
I hope that you find the relief from suffering you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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