Venting My friend attempted CTB yesterday

[gethsemane]

I kind of always thought I'd successfully CTB before him, so it was kind of a shock to get a text from him from the hospital this morning. I feel like I'm expected to be feeling a whole lot of things right now, but I kind of feel nothing? I'm going to try and be there for him, but he's kind of reminded me that CTB is my ultimate goal.