My family know I’m suicidal

[NothingElseMatters]

And they don't even care, they think I'm not gonna do it and just ignore me. It hurts, I'm suffering so bad.

 

[Deathbydemo]

I'm so sorry. Some people are just shitty and don't give enough credence to others suffering... until it's too late.

 

[Klee]

I've told my Mother on several occasions, and I too, am ignored. I feel your hurt. People always leave it far too late to care.

 

[disabledandhopeless]

You're not alone. I wonder why they behave like that? My family doesn't care too, they said that I can go ahead and die. None of their business.

 

[WinterFaust]

I'm so sorry. You and your suffering does matter. My family doesn't believe me or care either. All my mother said was that she didn't want a dead body in her house. Some people can be obtuse and others can be cruel. I'm so sorry. We care about you here.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Mine too. The other day I heard my mom talking to my aunt and she told her "He's better". She doesn't know I'm more suicidal than before she knew it. But I'm good at hiding my feelings.

 

[oopswronglife]

Mine too...ignored it for years. Acted shocked when I tried. Pretended for week to suddenly care...not even 7 days after I got out of hospital went back to the same bullshit. People don't change, people won't help, people WILL fight you from going. No winning.

 

[Genetics]

I have told anyone. I did say, in passing, recently to my husband something about suicide by gun. He said "don't do it here, I don't want anyone to think I killed you." He was joking of course because he definitely loves me even though I am totally mentally ill and VERY hard to live with about 110% of the time. That comment started me thinking though. I will video my suicide from start, setup etc. to finish. I will leave a note on the door where I decide to do this NOT to enter and to call 911 that there is a deceased person there. Then I will have a note by my laptop to NOT show the video to my husband or family. I will tell them the password to the computer my husband knows but make him tell you not enter it. I don't want him touching the laptop (fingerprints). I don't want to traumatize anyone, this isn't for revenge for me only relief.

So whether I do the inert gas/bag, gun, OD. I plan to video it for the authorities. I will also make videos for each of the 6 people I know to view. I for each. I'll probably have those sent on a timer after death.