Story My failed attempt and my new plan

[Claymore7274]

It's been months since my last attempt, back in 2025 i cut ties with my only friends, something i still hurt to this day, i went limp with the rope on my neck, passed out and faceplanted on the ground with the wardrobe i used as an anchor point over me, a terrible accident, bruised my head, i had a brain concussion, fractured my nose and lots of mental trauma, it was fucking terrifying to find me under there, alive with the rope still on my neck, each night i relive the moment

An accident i managed to mask as a workout session that went bad (i got lucky no one arrived while i was unconscious)

I have finished writing my goodbye note for my family, finished watching a few shows i wanted to see (mostly) although i can't help but feel it all has been a huge waste, i regret every day being alive since the start of the year, really, it has been nothing but anguish and pain

I found a better anchor point. the security bars of my room's window, private, sturdy, stationary, no-way-in-hell-breaks anchor point, arbor knot for me and bowline knot for the window, if you guys have a better idea for the knots let me know

I'll begin to attempt partial this weekend until i finally make it, as unreliable as partial may be it's all i have, i'll make sure i make it this time, if someone wants to talk i'll be around

 

[Slark]

Your profile says: "destined to never be loved," and I feel the same way. I don't think anyone has ever truly loved me. I hope you'll be at least a little happier, whatever your choice may be.

 

[Claymore7274]

Your profile says: "destined to never be loved," and I feel the same way. I don't think anyone has ever truly loved me. I hope you'll be at least a little happier, whatever your choice may be.

Yeah, human interaction is fucking hard, and some of us are just not meant to be loved, unfortunately

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering.

 

[groovygoober]

How unreliable is partial btw ? I tried it once and I was loosing consciousness pretty quickly .
I can't really have too many test runs as my family will notice and my plan is to go do it in a scenic place far away from home so all I can do is simulations .
I did try the night night method multiple times and that is just mega unreliable hopefully partial is better.

 

[Claymore7274]

How unreliable is partial btw ? I tried it once and I was loosing consciousness pretty quickly .
I can't really have too many test runs as my family will notice and my plan is to go do it in a scenic place far away from home so all I can do is simulations .
I did try the night night method multiple times and that is just mega unreliable hopefully partial is better.

people say due to SI you spring back to your feet, also the syncope convulsions may also cut off the pressure on your neck partial needs for it to work, who knows, there are more full suspension videos than partial ones for a reason, i'll see how it goes

Btw there's only ONE night-night evidence video, so yeah

(nice Lain banner you got there)

 

[thehorizons]

How unreliable is partial btw ? I tried it once and I was loosing consciousness pretty quickly .
I can't really have too many test runs as my family will notice and my plan is to go do it in a scenic place far away from home so all I can do is simulations .
I did try the night night method multiple times and that is just mega unreliable hopefully partial is better.

If you were losing consciousness, what material were you using? I was thinking about using Night-Night these past several months, but if you were able to lose consciousness with partial then this seems like the more effective alternative for me.

It's been months since my last attempt, back in 2025 i cut ties with my only friends, something i still hurt to this day, i went limp with the rope on my neck, passed out and faceplanted on the ground with the wardrobe i used as an anchor point over me, a terrible accident, bruised my head, i had a brain concussion, fractured my nose and lots of mental trauma, it was fucking terrifying to find me under there, alive with the rope still on my neck, each night i relive the moment

An accident i managed to mask as a workout session that went bad (i got lucky no one arrived while i was unconscious)

I have finished writing my goodbye note for my family, finished watching a few shows i wanted to see (mostly) although i can't help but feel it all has been a huge waste, i regret every day being alive since the start of the year, really, it has been nothing but anguish and pain

I found a better anchor point. the security bars of my room's window, private, sturdy, stationary, no-way-in-hell-breaks anchor point, arbor knot for me and bowline knot for the window, if you guys have a better idea for the knots let me know

I'll begin to attempt partial this weekend until i finally make it, as unreliable as partial may be it's all i have, i'll make sure i make it this time, if someone wants to talk i'll be around

I was wondering, what kind of rope were you using? I have to go with partial as well, as Night-Night is too unreliable and I don't think it's realistic to use the Nitrogen-gas method (I would have to fly to a different country and get it logistically working right which is going to cost be over 10K). I recently found a sturdy bar in my wardrobe that could support my weight (the bar doesn't seem to budge at all when I was hanging on it), so partial seems like the 'best' (I hate using this word for this context) way for me. I was recently diagnosed with oral cancer (it's on my lip but I'm sure I have it elsewhere in my mouth since I suspect it was the shisha I did back in the day) and I have benzodiazepine-induced neurological dysfunction as a cruel joke on top of the cancer. For the sake of my family and for myself I have to CTB this year as the future would look extremely bleak if I get ill further. Additionally, do you have any resources on partial that you used from here? I'm sorry that you had a failed attempt and had/have to use partial too.

 

[Claymore7274]

I was wondering, what kind of rope were you using?

A braided 5mm polypropylene rope that i tied in a way for the ligature to be 10mm thick, REALLY make sure your wardrobe in no way can sway or even fall, syncope convulsions after passing out can be very strong and that's what exactly happened to me, if possible i would highly advise you to find another anchor point, there cannot be space for failure in these situations.

i got most of my partial hanging knowledge from, this specific thread, my own testing and actual gore videos, so yeah that's that

Also i'm sorry to hear you have to go through such bullshit illnesses

 

[thehorizons]

A braided 5mm polypropylene rope that i tied in a way for the ligature to be 10mm thick, REALLY make sure your wardrobe in no way can sway or even fall, syncope convulsions after passing out can be very strong and that's what exactly happened to me, if possible i would highly advise you to find another anchor point, there cannot be space for failure in these situations.

i got most of my partial hanging knowledge from, this specific thread, my own testing and actual gore videos, so yeah that's that

Also i'm sorry to hear you have to go through such bullshit illnesses

Thanks for the quick response. No worries, I'm kind of numb to it by now. But I guess I might be lying to myself cause on some days I even forget that I'm in this situation.

I just have two more questions. First, how long did it take for you to pass out? I haven't attempted this method yet and I haven't researched much about it, so I don't know if my SI will kick in and I'll try to untangle myself. My SI is pretty low right now, but since I haven't tried it I don't know what would happen in that scenario. Second, how long would you ideally need to be undiscovered or alone? Again, thanks for all your help.

 

[sickofeverything]

A braided 5mm polypropylene rope that i tied in a way for the ligature to be 10mm thick, REALLY make sure your wardrobe in no way can sway or even fall, syncope convulsions after passing out can be very strong and that's what exactly happened to me, if possible i would highly advise you to find another anchor point, there cannot be space for failure in these situations.

i got most of my partial hanging knowledge from, this specific thread, my own testing and actual gore videos, so yeah that's that

Also i'm sorry to hear you have to go through such bullshit illnesses

If you have any tips of passing out you learned from experience it would be great to know

 

[Claymore7274]

Thanks for the quick response. No worries, I'm kind of numb to it by now. But I guess I might be lying to myself cause on some days I even forget that I'm in this situation.

I just have two more questions. First, how long did it take for you to pass out? I haven't attempted this method yet and I haven't researched much about it, so I don't know if my SI will kick in and I'll try to untangle myself. My SI is pretty low right now, but since I haven't tried it I don't know what would happen in that scenario. Second, how long would you ideally need to be undiscovered or alone? Again, thanks for all your help.

I took 3 tries to get the sweet spot, with the rope above my adams apple, i pushed down passed out in seconds, let's say in less than 5 seconds i was out, about an hour would be more than enough, get a day with as much time alone as possible

If you have any tips of passing out you learned from experience it would be great to know

The more weight you put on your carotid the better, so maybe dont kneel like i did, try a more upright position

 

[shaggy_dooo]

Did it hurt tho? I could try it but i dont wanna be scared af or very uncomfortable and in pain does it feel too bad? Sorry to bother

 

[sickofeverything]

I took 3 tries to get the sweet spot, with the rope above my adams apple, i pushed down passed out in seconds, let's say in less than 5 seconds i was out, about an hour would be more than enough, get a day with as much time alone as possible

The more weight you put on your carotid the better, so maybe dont kneel like i did, try a more upright position

Did you look forward or down? Was the rope just above the Adam's apple or higher under your jaw? Sorry if the questions are weird but I've been trying for awhile and I only get a blood rush feeling, or choking/gagging and neck pain, only got a slight ear ringing once when I pulled up on the rope with my arms but haven't gotten close to passing out. I would love to be able to figure out how to do it in 5 seconds like you, I did it for longer and had no luck :/

 

[Claymore7274]

Did it hurt tho? I could try it but i dont wanna be scared af or very uncomfortable and in pain does it feel too bad? Sorry to bother

Oh don't worry, it's not bothering at all, makes me feel like i'm contributing, like something good came outta this.

So all the time you're doing this it's gonna mildly hurt, because you're chaffing your neck with the rope but that's not a lot of pain, i had on a thin cloth under the rope to minimize pain, though honestly i have no idea if that makes it harder to pass out

It begins to hurt bad if you don't put enough pressure for a while, so if you're going at it for a few minutes and you're still conscious it will definitely hurt, you'll start to feel your blood pumping on your face, eyes, gums. You can hurt your jaw muscles if you're too long like this, so just take a break and start again, listen to a music playlist and i know it sounds crazy but try to relax, it takes time to find the right spot and position

Did you look forward or down? Was the rope just above the Adam's apple or higher under your jaw? Sorry if the questions are weird but I've been trying for awhile and I only get a blood rush feeling, or choking/gagging and neck pain, only got a slight ear ringing once when I pulled up on the rope with my arms but haven't gotten close to passing out. I would love to be able to figure out how to do it in 5 seconds like you, I did it for longer and had no luck :/

after two tries putting the rope under my adams apple, even the middle of it, i was choking myself and blocking my jugular veins, it feels awful to feel your heartbeat on all of your face, so then i set the rope as up on my neck as i could and let my bodyweight go down, fully kneeled down.

That's when it worked FAST, so what you should do, is find where the carotid is the most superficial on your neck, which is generally under the jaw, and put your weight DOWN, not forward

that's how i did it

 

[thehorizons]

It's been months since my last attempt, back in 2025 i cut ties with my only friends, something i still hurt to this day, i went limp with the rope on my neck, passed out and faceplanted on the ground with the wardrobe i used as an anchor point over me, a terrible accident, bruised my head, i had a brain concussion, fractured my nose and lots of mental trauma, it was fucking terrifying to find me under there, alive with the rope still on my neck, each night i relive the moment

An accident i managed to mask as a workout session that went bad (i got lucky no one arrived while i was unconscious)

I have finished writing my goodbye note for my family, finished watching a few shows i wanted to see (mostly) although i can't help but feel it all has been a huge waste, i regret every day being alive since the start of the year, really, it has been nothing but anguish and pain

I found a better anchor point. the security bars of my room's window, private, sturdy, stationary, no-way-in-hell-breaks anchor point, arbor knot for me and bowline knot for the window, if you guys have a better idea for the knots let me know

I'll begin to attempt partial this weekend until i finally make it, as unreliable as partial may be it's all i have, i'll make sure i make it this time, if someone wants to talk i'll be around

I just interacted with another user. I was wondering, why didn't you use something like a leather belt?

 

[Claymore7274]

I just interacted with another user. I was wondering, why didn't you use something like a leather belt?

harder to tie and secure to an anchor point, a rope is just far more reliable

 

[thehorizons]

Oh don't worry, it's not bothering at all, makes me feel like i'm contributing, like something good came outta this.

So all the time you're doing this it's gonna mildly hurt, because you're chaffing your neck with the rope but that's not a lot of pain, i had on a thin cloth under the rope to minimize pain, though honestly i have no idea if that makes it harder to pass out

It begins to hurt bad if you don't put enough pressure for a while, so if you're going at it for a few minutes and you're still conscious it will definitely hurt, you'll start to feel your blood pumping on your face, eyes, gums. You can hurt your jaw muscles if you're too long like this, so just take a break and start again, listen to a music playlist and i know it sounds crazy but try to relax, it takes time to find the right spot and position



after two tries putting the rope under my adams apple, even the middle of it, i was choking myself and blocking my jugular veins, it feels awful to feel your heartbeat on all of your face, so then i set the rope as up on my neck as i could and let my bodyweight go down, fully kneeled down.

That's when it worked FAST, so what you should do, is find where the carotid is the most superficial on your neck, which is generally under the jaw, and put your weight DOWN, not forward

that's how i did it

I just did a quick test run of using a towel, rolling the towel up, and flinging the towel over the rod. I didn't tie any knots cause I don't know how to yet. I just sort of did a half-assed simulation. It really hurt my neck, I felt like I was being choked, I had hot flashes (like what you mentioned), I felt like I couldn't breathe, I saw floaters, I was dizzy (like my forehead hurt), I had the feeling that my carotid arties had pressure being applied to them (cause I had that blackout sensation when I press on the carotid arties), and my Adam's apple really hurt.

How did you get it to be so painless or rather quick? Is it because like you mentioned, the key really is to put the knot above your Adam's apple and put your weight down? Then it should be quick?

I'm convinced this method could be fatal and is harder than it actually is (in my mind's eye I thought it would be an over-and-done with method). I wish I had the Nitrogen gas that would definitely be preferrable.

 

[groovygoober]

If you were losing consciousness, what material were you using? I was thinking about using Night-Night these past several months, but if you were able to lose consciousness with partial then this seems like the more effective alternative for me.

It was like a thick clothesline rope that my roommates had left behind it's exterior was not that rough but I used a thin cloth so that it doesn't show .
I tried the night night method so many times all it did was cause some pain partial or CO poisoning are I feel like better methods although CO poisoning would again require a lot of testing.

(nice Lain banner you got there)

Funnily enough I lost all digital lain collection after setting that banner along with my laptop .

 

[sickofeverything]

Oh don't worry, it's not bothering at all, makes me feel like i'm contributing, like something good came outta this.

So all the time you're doing this it's gonna mildly hurt, because you're chaffing your neck with the rope but that's not a lot of pain, i had on a thin cloth under the rope to minimize pain, though honestly i have no idea if that makes it harder to pass out

It begins to hurt bad if you don't put enough pressure for a while, so if you're going at it for a few minutes and you're still conscious it will definitely hurt, you'll start to feel your blood pumping on your face, eyes, gums. You can hurt your jaw muscles if you're too long like this, so just take a break and start again, listen to a music playlist and i know it sounds crazy but try to relax, it takes time to find the right spot and position



after two tries putting the rope under my adams apple, even the middle of it, i was choking myself and blocking my jugular veins, it feels awful to feel your heartbeat on all of your face, so then i set the rope as up on my neck as i could and let my bodyweight go down, fully kneeled down.

That's when it worked FAST, so what you should do, is find where the carotid is the most superficial on your neck, which is generally under the jaw, and put your weight DOWN, not forward

that's how i did it

If you had the rope under your Adam's apple how could you push down without it moving up your neck and losing the position? It seems like I can't do the other way I wanted due to prescription so I'm back to needing to figure this out :/

 

[Claymore7274]

I just did a quick test run of using a towel, rolling the towel up, and flinging the towel over the rod. I didn't tie any knots cause I don't know how to yet. I just sort of did a half-assed simulation. It really hurt my neck, I felt like I was being choked, I had hot flashes (like what you mentioned), I felt like I couldn't breathe, I saw floaters, I was dizzy (like my forehead hurt), I had the feeling that my carotid arties had pressure being applied to them (cause I had that blackout sensation when I press on the carotid arties), and my Adam's apple really hurt.

How did you get it to be so painless or rather quick? Is it because like you mentioned, the key really is to put the knot above your Adam's apple and put your weight down? Then it should be quick?

I'm convinced this method could be fatal and is harder than it actually is (in my mind's eye I thought it would be an over-and-done with method). I wish I had the Nitrogen gas that would definitely be preferrable.

likely the towel is too thick and is constricting the jugular vein, the ligature should be about 10 mm thick

If you had the rope under your Adam's apple how could you push down without it moving up your neck and losing the position? It seems like I can't do the other way I wanted due to prescription so I'm back to needing to figure this out :/

first two tries had me pushing forward, it was until i put the rope above the adam's apple and pushed down when it worked

 

[sickofeverything]

likely the towel is too thick and is constricting the jugular vein, the ligature should be about 10 mm thick

first two tries had me pushing forward, it was until i put the rope above the adam's apple and pushed down when it worked

Oh I see, you said you put the rope right under the jaw or just above the adams Apple when you pushed down? Did you use padding or anything?

 

[Claymore7274]

Oh I see, you said you put the rope right under the jaw or just above the adams Apple when you pushed down? Did you use padding or anything?

i mean i think i put it just above, but it ended up going all the way up anyways, i did try padding (a pair of rolled up socks that i put where the carotid arteries should be) in other attempts but did not work for me

 

[sickofeverything]

i mean i think i put it just above, but it ended up going all the way up anyways, i did try padding (a pair of rolled up socks that i put where the carotid arteries should be) in other attempts but did not work for me

I tried again with no padding and pushing down instead of forward and I'm still struggling to pass out. I saw another person post that they were essentially laying down and passed out and it's just so disheartening to try and try and try and get nowhere near passing out :/

 

[Claymore7274]

I tried again with no padding and pushing down instead of forward and I'm still struggling to pass out. I saw another person post that they were essentially laying down and passed out and it's just so disheartening to try and try and try and get nowhere near passing out :/

if your rope has enough length try other positions, it is definitely hard to pull it off but not impossible

 

[sickofeverything]

You said you did it kneeling, was that the only position that got you to pass out? And what mm rope did you use? I'm really trying to figure out what is going wrong when I try

 

[Claymore7274]

You said you did it kneeling, was that the only position that got you to pass out? And what mm rope did you use? I'm really trying to figure out what is going wrong when I try

5 mm, doubled up to be 10mm, fully kneeled relaxed muscles, it was the only position i tried, really

 

[sickofeverything]

Kneeled like standing on knees or sitting on heels? How were you able to relax your muscles? Alcohol? I tried with 12 mm might need to change my rope back to 10

 

[Claymore7274]

Kneeled like standing on knees or sitting on heels? How were you able to relax your muscles? Alcohol? I tried with 12 mm might need to change my rope back to 10

like this, i just did, i was tired, crying, all i did was just relax my whole body, this position may not be the best, because it's not a lotta weight, i've seen videos of people in a position like they're almost sitting on the air, they seem to go pretty fast

 

[sickofeverything]

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like this, i just did, i was tired, crying, all i did was just relax my whole body, this position may not be the best, because it's not a lotta weight, i've seen videos of people in a position like they're almost sitting on the air, they seem to go pretty fast

In that position doesn't it end up with you leaning forward instead of down to get the pressure you need? Sorry if it's invasive, I know this is hard for all of us I'm just really struggling to pass out

 

[Claymore7274]

In that position doesn't it end up with you leaning forward instead of down to get the pressure you need? Sorry if it's invasive, I know this is hard for all of us I'm just really struggling to pass out

my rope was already tight while kneeling upright, made it tighter by fully kneeling, maybe i leaned a little bit? i didn't feel much pressure on my windpipe tho