My existence is just an example of natural selection

[scary]

I was reading another thread and a user told me that describing it this way was a good way to put it thanks Leyna and it really got me thinking about my life and my existence in general (as if I don't already do that)

I've been told by my parents that I was the only child in the family who wasn't planned. Given how I turned out I feel as though I was never meant to exist and that I'm just proving Darwin's theories. I came out mentally and physically unwell, with things that can never truly be cured, and now have no desire to exist. I think the people around me growing up knew that too, that I'm a broken excuse for a human being and that's why I was treated so poorly.

Though its ironic, if someone else were to vent about this and say these things I'd tell them their existence matters, rules for thee not for me I guess.

 

[paradoxperception]

I was reading another thread and a user told me that describing it this way was a good way to put it thanks Leyna and it really got me thinking about my life and my existence in general (as if I don't already do that)

I've been told by my parents that I was the only child in the family who wasn't planned. Given how I turned out I feel as though I was never meant to exist and that I'm just proving Darwin's theories. I came out mentally and physically unwell, with things that can never truly be cured, and now have no desire to exist. I think the people around me growing up knew that too, that I'm a broken excuse for a human being and that's why I was treated so poorly.

Though its ironic, if someone else were to vent about this and say these things I'd tell them their existence matters, rules for thee not for me I guess.

Yup, it's partly the reason I don't want to have kids to bring them into this world.

I was also an accident - addict parents, mom with a brain injury, everyone told her to abort me, but she kept me. I was seen as her 2nd biggest life mistake - the first mistake they so berated her for, was when she was 16 -all her drug escapades/experiments that eventually led to her TBI, I was the next one and was reminded. I didn't ask for this 'gift of life'. But consciousness exists, and we suffer for it.

 

[itsgone2]

Well, I was planned. My older brother wasn't, but ctb a few years ago. I was, same fate eventually. Youngest wasn't planned. Struggled for a while but doing amazing now. Overall I'd say genetics is the bigger factor and one of us somehow did make it out. Still one of three not great.