My blessing is a curse

[Persona3]

I have now been signed off sick for a good while and have been given a referral to a psychologist, even though I still feel like nothing can help me. I have some money saved and am preparing for the worst. I admire people who are able to go about their daily lives despite depression. I can't remember the last time I even cried. I just can't cry. My mom doesn't know anything about my mental state right now, and I can't talk to her because she can't understand my depth, can't see what I see. My family is dysfunctional, and I'm completely alone with everything. Just wanted to get this off my chest.


Someone said seeing the depth is a blessing, yet I feel cursed with the ultra gaze of the Sharingan

 

[mysticatedwine]

there's nothing worse than knowing things are going wrong, but lacking the possiblity to act on them.

i wish you eventually find a way out from this dysfunctional family and find a safe social circle. if that happen, your curse just might turn back into a blessing

good luck, i love you

 

[itsgone2]

My family is dysfunctional, and I'm completely alone with everything.

Such a common curse here. Mine was. Then i did the same thing. I want to die soon. End this cycle forever.

 

[Persona3]

Such a common curse here. Mine was. Then i did the same thing. I want to die soon. End this cycle forever.

I tried opening up to my sister, but all she did was blame me and say others have it worse. I shouldn't have tried. I never intended to show her my real depth anyway. I just keep swallowing all the pressure until it feels like my head is about to explode. I've been sleeping the entire day, and I wish I could sleep even longer. Thank you all for your messages

 

[Persona3]

Such a common curse here. Mine was. Then i did the same thing. I want to die soon. End this cycle forever.

Just don't feel pressured. Slipping back into wanting to live is nothing to be ashamed of. You can give yourself more time..