I understand how you feel, it's harder to CTB than I thought until I tried my first time so I've learned to just bide my time to make sure I don't survive my next attempt.
I think we have the same birthday, and I completely relate to you. I'm someone who enjoys birthdays but each year and each birthday becomes more miserable. I was supposed to be dead 8 years ago. But my family intervened what could have been a successful attempt. I'm 22 and feel like such a loser among my classmates and people my ageI know how you feel. My birthday was yesterday, I'm still stuck in that deeper depressive episode. Only my sister minded my birthday and sent me a message. The family I live with didn't remember and I took the notification off my social media years ago because I hated being constantly reminded of it. 38 years of failure. I've always thought I would have ctb before each birthday including this one. I thought about doing an impulsive ctb using my SN on Saturday, without my earthly affairs being sorted out. But like a coward I chickened out.
I really hate this
Sorry to be reading this... 8 years ago, would have made you 14.I think we have the same birthday, and I completely relate to you. I'm someone who enjoys birthdays but each year and each birthday becomes more miserable. I was supposed to be dead 8 years ago. But my family intervened what could have been a successful attempt. I'm 22 and feel like such a loser among my classmates and people my age
It's okay, no need to apologize at all. And yes I tried killing myself on my 14th birthday
how old are you if you dont mind me asking
