
shediedatsea
drowsy . . .
- Jul 4, 2025
- 54
sorry to those i'll hurt with this, i'm hurting too.
i'm giving up on both recovery and trying to get my hands on AE and benzos, at this point i can't be bothered anymore.
to make sure i'll fall asleep ASAP after taking the SN i'll stay up 30 hours prior to consuming the delicious cocktail.
i'll have my last milkshake/sugary drink of choice 8 hours before (atp i don't even feel like eating ice cream anymore lol)
during the 30 hour time frame i'll do my favorite activities for the last time (including energy consuming ones, to make me feel tired)
start fast 6 hours before
vomex a 2 hours before
one more vomex a 40 mins before
showtime with 3 cups (first with 18g, rest with 20g, since i'm a light person) prepared and one bucket next to my bed, with my favorite fluffy blanket and soft pillow for comfort
scheduled messages for 5 hours after consumption, i don't have a set date but it'll be in the near future, my health is declining and it's starting to get unbearable
btw my username seems to be very misleading (i've been asked about it a couple of times), i'll do it in my bed and the room where my favorite person (my father) passed away to organ failure
i'm giving up on both recovery and trying to get my hands on AE and benzos, at this point i can't be bothered anymore.
to make sure i'll fall asleep ASAP after taking the SN i'll stay up 30 hours prior to consuming the delicious cocktail.
i'll have my last milkshake/sugary drink of choice 8 hours before (atp i don't even feel like eating ice cream anymore lol)
during the 30 hour time frame i'll do my favorite activities for the last time (including energy consuming ones, to make me feel tired)
start fast 6 hours before
vomex a 2 hours before
one more vomex a 40 mins before
showtime with 3 cups (first with 18g, rest with 20g, since i'm a light person) prepared and one bucket next to my bed, with my favorite fluffy blanket and soft pillow for comfort
scheduled messages for 5 hours after consumption, i don't have a set date but it'll be in the near future, my health is declining and it's starting to get unbearable
btw my username seems to be very misleading (i've been asked about it a couple of times), i'll do it in my bed and the room where my favorite person (my father) passed away to organ failure
