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“I’ve been digging my own grave for years”
- May 21, 2025
- 531
don't tell me I need to "move on" from the past and all of my problems, then be surprised when I say I want to die.
"moving on" for me would be removing myself from an environment/planet I was thrusted into, surrounding people who….
•make it their mission to treat you like shit to feel better about themselves,
•fake-celebrate or appreciate you to make themselves feel like heroes
•leave you to pick up the pieces of your trauma because its your life and your job to fix it.
after all if suicide is a "permanent solution", why the fuck would I not want a solution that guarantees me not having to deal with life and the bullshit that comes with it anymore? am I supposed to be grateful for surviving being a punching bag for so many people who wants me to stay alive so their little feelings won't get hurt?
killing myself is me "moving on" and my mind can't be changed on that no matter how mentally fucked, immature, or narrow minded you think that makes me.
"moving on" for me would be removing myself from an environment/planet I was thrusted into, surrounding people who….
•make it their mission to treat you like shit to feel better about themselves,
•fake-celebrate or appreciate you to make themselves feel like heroes
•leave you to pick up the pieces of your trauma because its your life and your job to fix it.
after all if suicide is a "permanent solution", why the fuck would I not want a solution that guarantees me not having to deal with life and the bullshit that comes with it anymore? am I supposed to be grateful for surviving being a punching bag for so many people who wants me to stay alive so their little feelings won't get hurt?
killing myself is me "moving on" and my mind can't be changed on that no matter how mentally fucked, immature, or narrow minded you think that makes me.
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