had to learn the hard way to keep people close but at a distance at the same time. it just isn't worth it.
i made peace with this by accepting to be alone. this involved deleting all socials, cutting everyone off, and staying to myself. i don't have the energy or care to deal with people.
been 4 years, and i can't put into words just how peaceful it's been.
to not have to worry about others and the baggage that comes with them that you have to eventually deal with? i'm good.