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- Dec 11, 2025
- 16
Last time I made a post like this I said I was for sure going to ctb, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. My schizophrenia has gotten so bad I just exist as an empty husk all day long and I feel nothing. All I think about now is killing myself and escaping this hell I'm living in. I just don't think I can get myself to do it but I must in order to escape my suffering. If anybody else has been in my position does it truly get better? I feel like I just can't take the risk of nothing improving and just elongating my suffering.