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offtoseethewizard

offtoseethewizard

Student
Aug 19, 2023
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I'm just in so much pain. My depression is just so bad that it's turning into a physical sickness. And I'm on antidepressants, which don't work. It's been two years of torture.

Lost so many friends. Realised I've been a bad person for most of my life and didn't realize it. Wasting girls' time. Sleeping around. Doing drugs. Being careless with other peoples feelings and just being dodgy. It kills me because I'm just too mentally ill now to atone for these things and make them right

I've spent the last week working from home but basically just sitting in torturous pain and underperforming.

I've measured out three 25g portions of SN. Ate last at 4pm. Will continue fasting until 11ish.

I will probably flake out. But I guess each attempt gets you closer to the goal.

Im
Just so desperate for the pain to end, but so afraid to die.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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I wish you all the best whatever you decide to do. I hope you find peace. Good luck!
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I wish you the best in whatever happens, it's certainly very much understandable just wishing to be free from this cruel existence where there is so much suffering.
 
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I hope you find peace.
 
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offtoseethewizard

offtoseethewizard

Student
Aug 19, 2023
122
Still here, I couldn't do it. Freaked out. Sorry guys
 
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NoOneLovesMiMi

NoOneLovesMiMi

Just Me
May 27, 2023
114
Still here, I couldn't do it. Freaked out. Sorry guys
It's ok
But you can always atone
Just simply say what you did wrong and ask for forgiveness
Admitting is the first step and a great one
 
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Gonnerr

Enlightened
Mar 12, 2023
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Good luck, i hope you escape pain.

Per ardua ad astra.
 
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Alltheywanted

Alltheywanted

Nobody knows what I see
Mar 6, 2023
330
I wish you good luck in implementing your plans!
Also what helped me to overcome my fear of death was a quote.
Epicurus said, "Death does not concern us, for as long as
we exist, there is no death here. And when that happens, no
does not exist anymore." And if you're afraid of the afterlife, simple as that
wonder if it could be any worse than it is now.
 
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