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iseeblue1

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May 25, 2026
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Hi, not new here, been here a few years back and kept coming back but not actually attempting; until 3 days ago when I started going every single night at a river I know I can drown in before anyone comes to me. My problem is that every time I go my SI kicks in and can t do it. I tried a lot of alcohol and thinking to just jump without spending time near it or going off the stairs of it but I didn t have the courage for that either.
What can I take that s accessible to make me unconscious so I fall, or that would make my SI not kick in; I thought about holding my breath until I pass out when I m near the edge? Too bad I think that maybe my SI would make me breathe anyway
I wanna do it tonight so I hope I get many recommendations
On an unrelated note, I hope all you guys find a reason to stay

TLDR;
What can I take other than alcohol to make my SI go away and be able to drown myself?
 
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adamantc

Member
Mar 29, 2026
38
Hi, not new here, been here a few years back and kept coming back but not actually attempting; until 3 days ago when I started going every single night at a river I know I can drown in before anyone comes to me. My problem is that every time I go my SI kicks in and can t do it. I tried a lot of alcohol and thinking to just jump without spending time near it or going off the stairs of it but I didn t have the courage for that either.
What can I take that s accessible to make me unconscious so I fall, or that would make my SI not kick in; I thought about holding my breath until I pass out when I m near the edge? Too bad I think that maybe my SI would make me breathe anyway
I wanna do it tonight so I hope I get many recommendations
On an unrelated note, I hope all you guys find a reason to stay

TLDR;
What can I take other than alcohol to make my SI go away and be able to drown myself?
How tall is the bridge? You could die in one of four ways:
-death from impact on the water
-death from wounds sustained by hitting the river bed
-death from drowning, as you can't swim (if you can't swim)
-death from hypothermia.
Or, your SI could make you swim out of the river.

If you don't want to break the law, alcohol is your best option. Otherwise, recreational drugs may also work, but they are illegal.
 
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