• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block. If you're located in the UK, we recommend using a VPN to maintain access.

greyblue_bian

greyblue_bian

2x Failed CTB Member
Jun 10, 2022
184
I think as I get closer to the day I'm going to leave, I feel the need to write more and post more on my social media and make it public and color and do more art and make more playlists etc. and let everyone see them in a final effort to be heard and seen as a human being. I will be dead, but at least people will see me and acknowledge me for who I was. I want people to know who I really am. Maybe it will help people after I go, maybe not. I do think at the end of the day my efforts will be in vain and no one try to listen or understand. It just gives me some relief to know that I could vicariously live through the things I've put out there instead of actually living at all. I don't know why but this is something on my mind 95% of the time.
 
  • Hugs
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: thesighofleaves, sugarb, Scattered-Soul and 3 others
D

dolemitedrums

Arcanist
Jun 12, 2024
449
Understandable. Those who will miss you may appreciate the ways you provide to stay connected somehow.
 
  • Love
Reactions: greyblue_bian
sugarb

sugarb

thief of silent dreams
Jun 14, 2024
795
I think as I get closer to the day I'm going to leave, I feel the need to write more and post more on my social media and make it public and color and do more art and make more playlists etc. and let everyone see them in a final effort to be heard and seen as a human being. I will be dead, but at least people will see me and acknowledge me for who I was. I want people to know who I really am. Maybe it will help people after I go, maybe not. I do think at the end of the day my efforts will be in vain and no one try to listen or understand. It just gives me some relief to know that I could vicariously live through the things I've put out there instead of actually living at all. I don't know why but this is something on my mind 95% of the time.
I've been doing that a while now, too. I hope I pass by something you've made sometime. <3
 
  • Love
Reactions: greyblue_bian

Similar threads

SoulWhisperer
Replies
0
Views
81
Offtopic
SoulWhisperer
SoulWhisperer
restingplace
Replies
8
Views
138
Suicide Discussion
Don’tWakeMe
Don’tWakeMe
absolute_n0thing
Replies
23
Views
831
Suicide Discussion
Forveleth
F
DeeDog
Replies
0
Views
34
Suicide Discussion
DeeDog
DeeDog
D
Replies
0
Views
60
Suicide Discussion
Depressed&Stressed
D