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grimmtheripper

grimmtheripper

Welcome to the "Diary of the Damned".
May 1, 2022
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So, I've attempted suicide 8 times now. My last attempt was on Christmas Eve, I tried to consume bleach and instead of it killing it, it just left chemical burns on my digestive track and esophagus. I do not want to attempt again unless I'm sure it will work. I can not handle another failed attempt finally leaving me a vegetable in a hospital, completely burdening my family with the task of keeping someone alive who just doesn't wanna be here. I've been looking into poison and pesticides but based on my research, most people spend several days in intensive care before their organs finally fail. I do not want to be in pain. Given my previous hospitalizations, I can not legally own a gun. I've tried to overdose several times, each ending in failure. I attempted to jump out of a moving car and off a bridge. I have to be some kind of cockroach evolution or something. Please help me make the next attempt my LAST attempt. I can not suffer any longer.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry that you have been through all those failed attempts, I can imagine that it must have been so awful. The fear of failure is the main thing that holds me back from attempting. Dying should be easier and a peaceful exit should be a human right. We have all already suffered enough in life so we should not have to suffer when we are trying to leave. I hope that you find what you are looking for.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

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Apr 15, 2022
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Being found (before a ctb is successful) is the biggest, or one of the biggest, detriments to a successful ctb.

Sorry, that's the only insight I have for you.
 

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