Lost my way

[Rose45]

I had a good life.. everything was fine and then I made a mistake and screwed up everything.i live with step family..I was handling them and had a future if I struggled .but I made a mistake now they had destroyed me and things are difficult to work out again..I'm thinking to fix everything or if nothing fixes I should move away from this place..I don't know but there is no other way except suicide..

 

[calendulo]

I hope do not bother you......................May I ask you what was that mistake.

 

[Rose45]

When they wanted to destroy me...I should have talked to them about some issues and Everything could have changed but I never did...so now I don't know what to do or after a year I should leave that place because I cannot survive anymore

 

[calendulo]

well, maybe you might have talked them time ago, but you can to do now.
Any time is proper to clarify your disagreements, so the question is How can we solved it?.
Do not get lost in the labyrinth of your own thoughts and talk them openly.

 

[Soul]

@Rose45, if you can leave the situation you're in, it sounds like you should, at least for a few days to get you feeling less lost. But tell your family what you're doing and why, and you can/should talk with them about the problems when you feel a bit steadier.

 

[Rose45]

Actually I live with step family and I should have moved away from this place years ago...but it was a mistake that I never moved away...so I was surviving in between them ..but they did things to me .even they tried to kill me..and they make ways to destroy me,now I should talk to them about circumstances or for their favour so that I could have survived among them but I made a mistake and never talked to them so they don't understand the circumstances and destroyed me ..now surviving among them is not possible,I am still trying to make things right but nothing is improving ,now I am doing a master's degree from University but they have also destroyed my education I have failed alot of subjects and my grades are bad,if I become successful in improving my grades and completing my degree ,I am thinking about moving away from them ..but right now I don't know what to do,I'm so much in bad circumstances

 

[calendulo]

You have to complete your degree. That is the most important.
Bad circumstances will be in the path, always,................ but you are going to get over at all.


Add. You are a remarkable person. Do not forget it.

 

[Broken Chimera]

even they tried to kill me

I know you're in a bad place. But can you move anywhere else while you finish your degree? If they're trying to destroy you, it's not safe to be with them. Maybe then you could try to build your grades up. But living in stress and fear makes everything worse.

 

[Rose45]

It's not possible I have to live at that place while finishing it..after one year I can move away

 

[stanto]

I had a good life.. everything was fine and then I made a mistake and screwed up everything.i live with step family..I was handling them and had a future if I struggled .but I made a mistake now they had destroyed me and things are difficult to work out again..I'm thinking to fix everything or if nothing fixes I should move away from this place..I don't know but there is no other way except suicide..

I feel u, I made one stupid mistake - and it destroyed everything- Thats the fucked up thing