Help Looking for a ctb buddy

[justtryingtocease]

Not a suicide pact, but someone who I can plan with, preferably on another platform with easier to use chat function.
For context, I havent left my house since January.
I shower and brush my teeth once a week (disgusting, I know).
All I do is sleep, wake up, eat and watch tiktoks, youtube videos, and game every waking second because if i stop, i think about my reality and why would i want to do that.
I havent been taking my meds either.
So Im looking to lock in, start taking my meds for my depression and adhd etcetra, and start actually planning and making an effort towards suicide.
Ive been living in an avoidant state towards everything, including suicide and doing research/ preparing for it.
And because I live in Japan, where lethal drugs are hard to access, my only option for when im impulsive is partial hanging which im too much of a pussy to do.
Anyway, Im looking for a buddy.
You dont have to be looking to ctb soon, though I'd help you do research if youd like.

 

[The Dead Line]

That is illegal

 

[SMxj9]

i'm in a similar state, almost all the time watching something or reading this website, my apartment was a mess yesterday, because i can't keep it clean. All my teeth have restorations because of not taking proper care.

 

[PanaxMan]

Not a suicide pact, but someone who I can plan with, preferably on another platform with easier to use chat function.
For context, I havent left my house since January.
I shower and brush my teeth once a week (disgusting, I know).
All I do is sleep, wake up, eat and watch tiktoks, youtube videos, and game every waking second because if i stop, i think about my reality and why would i want to do that.
I havent been taking my meds either.
So Im looking to lock in, start taking my meds for my depression and adhd etcetra, and start actually planning and making an effort towards suicide.
Ive been living in an avoidant state towards everything, including suicide and doing research/ preparing for it.
And because I live in Japan, where lethal drugs are hard to access, my only option for when im impulsive is partial hanging which im too much of a pussy to do.
Anyway, Im looking for a buddy.
You dont have to be looking to ctb soon, though I'd help you do research if youd like.

Most countries it's illegal

 

[ReaperSeeker]

Not a suicide pact, but someone who I can plan with, preferably on another platform with easier to use chat function.
For context, I havent left my house since January.
I shower and brush my teeth once a week (disgusting, I know).
All I do is sleep, wake up, eat and watch tiktoks, youtube videos, and game every waking second because if i stop, i think about my reality and why would i want to do that.
I havent been taking my meds either.
So Im looking to lock in, start taking my meds for my depression and adhd etcetra, and start actually planning and making an effort towards suicide.
Ive been living in an avoidant state towards everything, including suicide and doing research/ preparing for it.
And because I live in Japan, where lethal drugs are hard to access, my only option for when im impulsive is partial hanging which im too much of a pussy to do.
Anyway, Im looking for a buddy.
You dont have to be looking to ctb soon, though I'd help you do research if youd like.

Looking for a buddy too

I don't know if there is a way to private chat.

 

[darksouls]

Looking for a buddy too

I don't know if there is a way to private chat.

you need to write more messages, then the privat chat will be unlocked for you

 

[stiarling]

Looking for a buddy too

I don't know if there is a way to private chat.

I think you need to write at least 30 posts

 

[Earthfree]

Not a suicide pact, but someone who I can plan with, preferably on another platform with easier to use chat function.
For context, I havent left my house since January.
I shower and brush my teeth once a week (disgusting, I know).
All I do is sleep, wake up, eat and watch tiktoks, youtube videos, and game every waking second because if i stop, i think about my reality and why would i want to do that.
I havent been taking my meds either.
So Im looking to lock in, start taking my meds for my depression and adhd etcetra, and start actually planning and making an effort towards suicide.
Ive been living in an avoidant state towards everything, including suicide and doing research/ preparing for it.
And because I live in Japan, where lethal drugs are hard to access, my only option for when im impulsive is partial hanging which im too much of a pussy to do.
Anyway, Im looking for a buddy.
You dont have to be looking to ctb soon, though I'd help you do research if youd like.

Intrrested

I think you need to write at least 30 posts

Good to know! Thanks for that info, was wondering why I couldn't private message on here

 

[ReaperSeeker]

Wow, is there a way to find a counter or something?

lol that sort of blows since I'm more of an introvert. But I guess that's what it's going to take then.

Thanks for the info everyone.

I think you need to write at least 30 posts

Do replies count towards posts? Or you need to start them?

 

[darksouls]

Wow, is there a way to find a counter or something?

lol that sort of blows since I'm more of an introvert. But I guess that's what it's going to take then.

Thanks for the info everyone.

Do replies count towards posts? Or you need to start them?

yes, replies count,
you can also post pictures, videos or only smilies

 

[ReaperSeeker]

Oh wow thanks!

Hopefully I'll get there

 

[gothbird]

There is a thread here to find buddies, and as others have said you can PM when you get more active.
However: rada rada rada...illegal...be safe...legal jargon...and also there are lots a creeps who will look for buddies because they have more nefarious intentions, so be extra safe when finding someone to "lock in" with. There have been a couple of cases of "buddies" just being literal murderers, or perverts, or both.

Just because you're wanting to die doesn't mean all your safety should go out the window. See you in the stars!