I believe you're in the deepest of pain, and probably doing it with someone else brings security, but I doubt it's a good idea..
I've heard of others make pacts, and dependent on who you pact with, it really can be dangerous, or even legally not good, if one of you survives or is found to have solicited or abetted the other...
Idk, it just seems open to abuse... Such things.
Just be careful