Look at yourself as the skeleton and brain we are, and realize that eager animal

[Surai]

when you see yourself as a skeleton. Looking down at yourself sitting there. Where the brain connects and the bones of the spinal cord length behind. How this creature eats sleeps and lives. like an eager animal. To grab at anything we get our bony hands on. We are eager and selfish. Its what keeps us alive. Its what keeps animals eating and thrive. I cant help but notice all of my problems all my stress comes from living beings. I cant help it. Why should we try. Ive tried and tried following the animal in its trail to stay alive. But I dont want to stay alive. Its the same where on both sides I cant fall onto a side to stay. I cant stay where it crushes me between. Noticed that even my own thoughts and actions are futile and any pursuit of knowledge or understanding ceaseless.