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FireFox

FireFox

Enlightened
Apr 8, 2020
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I just can't cope anymore everyday I feel like I am living with a monster. My thoughts, fears and insecurities torment me relentlessly. I do not have anyone to reach out to because when I reached out all those years everyone drove me away and treated me like an uncomfortable inconvenience to their normal lives. I gave up reaching out to people. Its not worth it. It really is not.

I have tried so hard to fight this monster within me and I can't fight it anymore.

No human being deserves this level of mental torture.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
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I gave up reaching out too, it's pointless. Sorry you're losing the fight so am I.
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
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ObsidianMidnightSky

ObsidianMidnightSky

A Void of Darkness
Aug 15, 2025
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Felt. Panicking multiple times a day and feeling like there is no one to save you… it is horrible.

Ever tried writing what you wish you could say down? I feel it helps sometimes. I also like listening to songs that approach the topic of "feeling like a monster". They help to feel understood.
 
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FireFox

FireFox

Enlightened
Apr 8, 2020
1,907
I gave up reaching out too, it's pointless. Sorry you're losing the fight so am I.
@Hollowman I used to be so close to an extended family member and she gossiped about me to other relatives our private conversations. Worst of all she told everyone in the family I was crazy and was laughing about me behind my back. This was a relative I admired so much.

This relative is a nurse which makes it even worse.

I have been laughed at, judged and ignored by the people I reached out for help.
@Pluto I love cats
Felt. Panicking multiple times a day and feeling like there is no one to save you… it is horrible.

Ever tried writing what you wish you could say down? I feel it helps sometimes. I also like listening to songs that approach the topic of "feeling like a monster". They help to feel understood.
@ObsidianMidnightSky Music does have a powerful way of connecting people
@theboy one of the worst things with severe depression and anxiety is nobody saw how hard the person truly tried to get better and improve their lives. I really tried and I can't fight it anymore. I can't fight it anymore.

I want to sleep and never wake up
 
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@Hollowman I used to be so close to an extended family member and she gossiped about me to other relatives our private conversations. Worst of all she told everyone in the family I was crazy and was laughing about me behind my back. This was a relative I admired so much.

This relative is a nurse which makes it even worse.

I have been laughed at, judged and ignored by the people I reached out for help.

@Pluto I love cats

@ObsidianMidnightSky Music does have a powerful way of connecting people

@theboy one of the worst things with severe depression and anxiety is nobody saw how hard the person truly tried to get better and improve their lives. I really tried and I can't fight it anymore. I can't fight it anymore.

I want to sleep and never wake up
Sorry to hear that. People can be so cruel and disappointing. I'm too far gone now to care about what anyone says about me.
 

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