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trapped
- Oct 22, 2023
 
- 4
 
I feel like my whole life I've been going on for maybe 1 or 2 people and its veen consistent between even after some people have come and gone, there's always at least 1 person who wants me to live.  Currently one has been telling me "we need you alive" whenever I end up in some sort of situation where I get hurt.  I've been there for her to help her when shes been down, through a breakup, general rough times, etc.  But I'm having such a hard time keeping going especially recently, things have been getting worse again and I find it harder to keep going for her, even though she means the world to me, I want to give up, but I don't want to hurt her like this.