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qualityOV3Rquantity

qualityOV3Rquantity

Experienced
Jul 27, 2024
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My family is babysitting 2 kids of family friends and one got into a bunch of medication and had to go to the hospital. Luckily he'll be okay, but now I'm stuck at home taking care of the other child, and I can't fucking handle it. She's touching everything, she's screaming, and my chronic illness is flaring up and it feels like I'm burning inside but I can't fucking even lay down.

This is supposed to be the goal? This is life, having kids? I just can't fucking do this. Life. It hurts so much just to breathe, just to exist and think. It hurts so much. I want peace, I want to not need to worry about other people or my health or my future, or my fucking bullshit job, I just want to disappear...
 
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MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
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The fact that you still have the will to watch the other child despite your illness tells me you're a very caring person. A common trait of people waiting at the bus stop. People will only appreciate how much we cared after we're gone.
 
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FuneralCry

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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I understand just wanting to disappear, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in this painful existence, it personally terrifies me how a human can suffer in this existence for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel. But anyway I wish you the best.
 
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