Life is humiliating

[LetMeOut67]

Nobody asks to be dragged into this game that some were 100% destined to lose.
I'm sure people with more money, better looks , more friends aren't thinking about society's losers all the time and feeling smug, it just feels like they do. I avoid even having to look at people like this. They live a different reality.
If dealt the same hand as losers misfits and neuro divergent like me I'd love to see how they'd handle it.
I'm done. There cannot be a happy ending to my story. There never could have been. Impossible.

 

[K2PE]

That's precisely why we're here. I don't consider myself a loser; I've simply lost the desire to continue. Nothing more than that. I can't find any reasons, and I think it's better to step aside.

 

[LetMeOut67]

(from Hamlet, spoken by Hamlet)
To be, or not to be, that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles
And by opposing end them. To die—to sleep,
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to: 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep, perchance to dream—ay, there's the rub:
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come,
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause—there's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life.
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
Th'oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of dispriz'd love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office, and the spurns
That patient merit of th'unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? Who would fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscovere'd country, from whose bourn
No traveller returns, puzzles the will,
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience doth make cowards of us all,
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pith and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry
And lose the name of action.

 

[LetMeOut67]

I told my siblings that I'm suicidal and could I move in with him for a few days
He doesn't seem that keen
He knows my life is horrible
Maybe he's accepted that I am better off deleting myself

 

[Life'sA6itch]

I told my siblings that I'm suicidal and could I move in with him for a few days
He doesn't seem that keen
He knows my life is horrible
Maybe he's accepted that I am better off deleting myself

Not necessarily that he thinks you should die but more likely some other reason like having another person in your living space means you have less space, privacy, freedom, etc. For example, I am introverted and having someone come live with me honesty could make me more suicidal because I would have to live around someone else's moods and schedule. This would drive me crazy even just for a few days.

I wouldn't want to clean up after others or be awakened by their noise. I don't want to talk all the time or constantly buy groceries and pay for bills that I will not be paid back for. I want my home pristine and well maintained, a lot of people don't care. There's many other possible reasons they don't seem so keen, often as unique as the person you ask to live with. I understand your need but it's a very hefty thing to share a place. Even with family. This does not mean that they want you to die.

 

[theboy]

True

 

[Alexandra0]

We didn't ask for this life, but we can at least leave on our own terms. My life was doomed to fail from the start, too

 

[Wolf Girl]

God, I relate to this so much. It's humiliating walking around in public as me, seeing all the pretty people that I could never fit in with.