Life is a truly horrendous torture chamber

[iloverachel]

Does anyone else see life as some sort of torture chamber?
We are trapped in this hellish prison and are just tortured every day pointlessly for no reason
We are born to endure decades of suffering until we decay from old age and die
Throughout our time in this hellish torture chamber we experience the worst horrors imaginable, death of loved ones, disease, chronic pain, PTSD, work/slavery, war, famine, homelessness, sexual abuse, cancer, loneliness/isolation, depression anxiety and other mental health issues, assault, the list goes on

Existence is truly fucked up beyond comprehension. Death seems to be the only solution to this disgusting atrocity called life.

 

[KillingPain267]

I agree and feel that 100% !!!!!

And it feels like escaping the chamber is hard, like the only option is banging your head against the chamber walls (very painful ctb)

 

[Meteora]

I agree....

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course it is and more than anything I wish I never existed at all. To exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing much more unbearable suffering at any moment, it disturbs me how there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel as long as they are enslaved in this existence. To have the ability to exist truly is so incredibly hellish, I only wish for death in my case, all that comforts me is the thought of no longer being burdened with this existence.

I'd always prefer to not exist than to have the ability to suffer to such extreme amounts in an existence that caused nothing but harm and was always so meaningless and undesirable in the first place, existence itself really is the true problem and it's so horrific how humans decide to procreate.

 

[bearbrikk]

How did you cope until now?

 

[iloverachel]

How did you cope until now?

I don't cope with it well at all
I lay down and rot and dwell about how miserable I am and fantasise about different ways to die each day
Sometimes I'll try to watch movies or play games to distract myself but with anhedonia nothing is enjoyable

 

[bearbrikk]

Wow I have never heard of Anhedonia. I hope you have some antidepressants to help with the dopamine shortage to lessen the torture

 

[iloverachel]

Wow I have never heard of Anhedonia. I hope you have some antidepressants to help with the dopamine shortage to lessen the torture

I've been on over 10 antidepressants and none of them worked
Some of them made me worse
Some of them worked for maybe a few months then just stop working and I would need to continue upping tho dosage which was costly
But thanks for your concern and advice I appreciate it

 

[bearbrikk]

Im on Sertraline. For now it worked a little. And not a problem. Do you have someone you can vent to?

 

[Dark Moon]

True, it feels like a prison. I can't see any hope for myself and I'd want to get out of this hell I'm in, It's not easy to do.

 

[iloverachel]

Im on Sertraline. For now it worked a little. And not a problem. Do you have someone you can vent to?

Just a few online friends and this forum
But in real life not really

Im on Sertraline. For now it worked a little. And not a problem. Do you have someone you can vent to?

Ah that is Zoloft right
I remember that made me worse the first few weeks, then I made me improve a little then it went back to having no effect
But I'm glad it works for you

 

[bearbrikk]

Just a few online friends and this forum
But in real life not really

Ah that is Zoloft right
I remember that made me worse the first few weeks, then I made me improve a little then it went back to having no effect
But I'm glad it works for you

I dont know if its Zoloft. I will look it up. Im glad you have people online but I understand that you still feel lonely.

 

[Little_Suzy]

That's why Jesus turned water into wine and made mushrooms magical! lol

 

[DEATH IS FREEDOM]

Thank you for your words, you are correct in everything that you have written, however, this will not lead you out or this torture. What man can do except suicide to protest against bad politics is revolution or to move to nature. The best is to not procreate in this overpopulation.

 

[escape_from_hell]

It's such a cruel nightmare that I fear death might not even be the end of it. We just came to be in this nightmare somehow after all.

 

[J&L383]

I love Rachel

 

[iloverachel]

It's such a cruel nightmare that I fear death might not even be the end of it. We just came to be in this nightmare somehow after all.

Agreed