Venting Life has no meaning

[kapa]

So here we go again. I wanted to ctb new years eve but my friend drag me out of the house (they didn't know my plans). In that moment I've decided to give myself time. I've come out of a long term relationship, never imagine my life without them. Now I see no meaning I lost all the dreams I had, a future I wanted to live and now everything seems fake to me I don't see point in absolutely anything. I bought an apartment which was the biggest dream of mine but I can't be happy about it. I feel absolutely no joy I just want to be gone. I got sn but I'm scared to test it because I think it's not pure. I don't know what method to choose anymore. The guilt is eating me alive when I'm with my family everyone is so happy about my home they are so proud making plans and I don't want to be here....

 

[Dqope]

everything seems fake to me

It seems we are quite a like. I guess someone has the same feeling as I have. I dont see the point in working for a house, playing games, talking to people, trying to get into a relationship (everything is fake with no real meaning). I will go in a bit but you must come to your own conclusion. Good to know that I am not insane (or at least not the only insane one (xd)). Wish you the best.

 

[kapa]

It seems we are quite a like. I guess someone has the same feeling as I have. I dont see the point in working for a house, playing games, talking to people, trying to get into a relationship (everything is fake with no real meaning). I will go in a bit but you must come to your own conclusion. Good to know that I am not insane (or at least not the only insane one (xd)). Wish you the best.

Good to know I'm not alone either.You to I hope you find what you desire.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I just wish to be free from it all as well, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again, I could never see a point to any of this as well, I hope you find peace.

 

[kapa]

I understand, I just wish to be free from it all as well, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again, I could never see a point to any of this as well, I hope you find peace.

Thanks! You too my dear.

 

[WeepingWorm]

Wish I had someone at any point in my life that cared about me enough to drag me out anywhere.

 

[sanction]

Congrats on your apartment either way. Its an accomplishment

Now not to turn it into something negative, nor to encourage it in any negative way.

But as you said, since life is pretty pointless.

So imagine this. Sometimes we spend a good chunk of our lives, to plant seeds and prepare for the future. So for example, in your case, you purchased your apartment

However, due to how stupid life is, maybe the end result is..... after everything, you simply end up CTB-ing inside that same apartment one day

Which is a reflection how stupid and random life is. Of course not saying it will happen exactly like that, but just an example. Since occasionally people do CTB inside their own private residences

But yeah, life is indeed pretty meaningless. I'm struggling to find meaningless 24/7 myself

 

[kapa]

Wish I had someone at any point in my life that cared about me enough to drag me out anywhere.

Even if the whole world is there wanting to drag you out. If you don't want to be saved you'll always believe that no one is there. I have that friend.... But all the time i feel like no one cares. And it's very cruel think to say I know, but the only person who will drag you out is you. If you need someone to talk I'm here

Congrats on your apartment either way. Its an accomplishment

Now not to turn it into something negative, nor to encourage it in any negative way.

But as you said, since life is pretty pointless.

So imagine this. Sometimes we spend a good chunk of our lives, to plant seeds and prepare for the future. So for example, in your case, you purchased your apartment

However, due to how stupid life is, maybe the end result is..... after everything, you simply end up CTB-ing inside that same apartment one day

Which is a reflection how stupid and random life is. Of course not saying it will happen exactly like that, but just an example. Since occasionally people do CTB inside their own private residences

But yeah, life is indeed pretty meaningless. I'm struggling to find meaningless 24/7 myself

And that's perfect example of absurdism. You made me smile actually. In fact I wanted to die in my own place. Natural death or ctb it didn't matter. It really is stupid that life.

 

[sanction]

Even if the whole world is there wanting to drag you out. If you don't want to be saved you'll always believe that no one is there. I have that friend.... But all the time i feel like no one cares. And it's very cruel think to say I know, but the only person who will drag you out is you. If you need someone to talk I'm here

And that's perfect example of absurdism. You made me smile actually. In fact I wanted to die in my own place. Natural death or ctb it didn't matter. It really is stupid that life.

Same. I would love to die at my own place too. I'm currently renting. Which is indeed a headache. Theres a tenant upstairs from me. It will be very inconsiderate for me to CTB here, and affect both upstairs neighbour and landlord. In addition to the privacy. If I were to CTB, some noise may travel upstairs, and potentially make them aware

Everything is such bullshit. Tired of life