rammie
New Member
- Oct 12, 2025
- 2
i have been dealing with mood disorders since i was 14.
i'm 21, male, gay, furry and a very unstable person.
i was born and raised by eu parents in a highly inflated south american country.
between 11 and 15 i've been in four different schools and locations, we had to escape our original country due to the high inflation.
this has made me extremely socially anxious, and made it so difficult to find and trust friends that would stick.
by our last move of countries, i had completely given up building relations, and resorted to online friends only. and again, some would come and go.
i have a s/o but i don't feel like we connect as much anymore, our relationship was rushed from the start since both of us were unstable and friendzoned at around the same time.
finding friends is so difficult for such an introverted and unmotivated person like me.
if you think furries are stable and full of connections, oh boy you are so wrong.
not even a $5k fursuit got me closer to anyone, no amount of art did anything for me either.
i can't stop feeling alone, and i just want my pain to end. every day i just feel like i have less and less connections to people.
i have been preparing my one way trip for a long time now.
i have been looking to pay off my debts and sell my most valuable possessions in order to not leave a burden on any of my loved ones and be able to afford my own cremation, as they all have enough to deal with already. i do not want to have a funeral, there's nothing good in my life to be remembered of.
i have no family other than my parents in the u.s, so there's no point on doing all of that.
i've been looking for painless methods, i have access to escitalopram (generic lexapro) from prescribed antidepressants (that do not work for me, btw) and i've been told to watch my dosage because it can be fatal...
but i'm scared that it can hurt me during my last moments. do you all have any information or suggestions?
i'm 21, male, gay, furry and a very unstable person.
i was born and raised by eu parents in a highly inflated south american country.
between 11 and 15 i've been in four different schools and locations, we had to escape our original country due to the high inflation.
this has made me extremely socially anxious, and made it so difficult to find and trust friends that would stick.
by our last move of countries, i had completely given up building relations, and resorted to online friends only. and again, some would come and go.
i have a s/o but i don't feel like we connect as much anymore, our relationship was rushed from the start since both of us were unstable and friendzoned at around the same time.
finding friends is so difficult for such an introverted and unmotivated person like me.
if you think furries are stable and full of connections, oh boy you are so wrong.
not even a $5k fursuit got me closer to anyone, no amount of art did anything for me either.
i can't stop feeling alone, and i just want my pain to end. every day i just feel like i have less and less connections to people.
i have been preparing my one way trip for a long time now.
i have been looking to pay off my debts and sell my most valuable possessions in order to not leave a burden on any of my loved ones and be able to afford my own cremation, as they all have enough to deal with already. i do not want to have a funeral, there's nothing good in my life to be remembered of.
i have no family other than my parents in the u.s, so there's no point on doing all of that.
i've been looking for painless methods, i have access to escitalopram (generic lexapro) from prescribed antidepressants (that do not work for me, btw) and i've been told to watch my dosage because it can be fatal...
but i'm scared that it can hurt me during my last moments. do you all have any information or suggestions?
