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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,078
Yes, I know: the fear of death/the unknown, SI, the fear of failing and becoming quadriplegic, the fear of blessing loved ones, the hope that things will get better, and not THE method for ctb… I

n short… life really sucks. 🤮🤮🤮 Life: 90% suffering or boredom, 10% pleasure, and then dying at the end… How can people accept this? 🤮🤮🤮
 
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Abandoned Phantom

Abandoned Phantom

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Oct 3, 2025
89
Yeah. It's utterly ridiculous! Even the most amazing 10%, is just not worth it. Even if every time you got to the 10% it was the best time of your life, you have to suffer through the other 90% just to get it. Some people, im sure will tell you that the 90% makes the 10% that much better. But it's not like its 10% amazing and 90% just ok. That 90% is awful! This game of life is bullshit. There is no winning move, the only option is to not play.
And as far as we know, we didn't have a choice to be here. We didnt ask to be born into this world, yet if we tell people we want to make the choice to stop playing this game, they think there's something wrong with us.
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
1,105
I can't even feel pleasure, it's literally just 100% pain
 
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Matchaaa

Matchaaa

Please excuse any tone misunderstandings,thank you
Dec 10, 2025
112
Sometimes it feels like life is basically 100% pain, and the little moments of happiness are just when the pain eases for a bit lol.
 
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_Gollum_

_Gollum_

Formerly Alexei_Kirillov
Mar 9, 2024
1,634
It's such a scam. I can't believe my parents thought it was a good idea to conceive a new human being who would have to suffer. I loathe existence. Just maintaining my body is such a burden. The only pleasures I've gotten in life have come with so much pain, so much so that they are far outweighed by the pain. I just think existence is such a sick joke.
 
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Spite

Spite

I don't like this world.
Aug 20, 2025
320
90% suffering, 10% pleasure sounds pretty accurate. The suffering is practically never-ending. I've had many times where I've asked myself "are these few fleeting good moments really worth staying around for?" The bad far, *far* outweighs the good.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,638
I'd just never accept any of this, to me existence is the most terrible, torturous mistake and I find it so dreadful how humans cause all this harm and torture by imposing this onto others, to suffer in this existence truly is an abomination.

I find it torture every second to exist and what is such terrible extreme cruelty is how humans do all they can to prolong and force the suffering and torture of existing no matter what even know it all just leads to decay and death anyway with no limit as to how much one can be tortured. This existence truly is just futile, dreadful suffering and for me only non-existence could ever be positive, for me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to finally be at peace from the torture of this dreadful existence.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,462
Why would anyone want to exist? How do we get out? Old age with dementia or some terrible illness? Stuck in some run down home? Killing ourselves ? Horrific. Sorry but this is cruel. We shouldn't exist the whole thing is so awful
 
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SangreMelancolica

SangreMelancolica

Member
Apr 15, 2025
18
Same sentiment 1000043574
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,078
C'est une véritable arnaque. Je n'arrive pas à croire que mes parents aient pensé que concevoir un être humain voué à souffrir était une bonne idée. Je déteste l'existence. Prendre soin de mon corps est déjà un fardeau. Les seuls plaisirs que j'ai connus dans ma vie ont été accompagnés d'une telle souffrance qu'ils sont largement surpassés par cette dernière. Je trouve l'existence tout simplement absurde.
Yes agree with you
Ouais. C'est complètement absurde ! Même les 10 % les plus incroyables ne valent pas le coup. Même si chaque fois que vous atteignez ces 10 %, c'est le meilleur moment de votre vie, il faut se farcir les 90 % restants pour y arriver. Certains vous diront sûrement que les 90 % rendent les 10 % d'autant plus beaux. Mais ce n'est pas comme si 10 % étaient extraordinaires et les 90 % juste corrects. Ces 90 % sont horribles ! Ce jeu de la vie est une arnaque. Il n'y a pas de stratégie gagnante, la seule option est de ne pas jouer.
Et pour autant que nous sachions, nous n'avons pas choisi d'être ici. Nous n'avons pas demandé à naître dans ce monde, et pourtant, si nous disons aux gens que nous voulons choisir d'arrêter de jouer ce jeu, ils pensent qu'il y a quelque chose qui cloche chez nous.
👏👏👏
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,290
yes I agree

but even if reversed i still would loathe this hell like no one has

who would trade 9 hours of pleasure for 1 hour of the most extreme pain and torture. ?

not me . I don't want to suffer even 30 seconds of the constant worst pain . not for any stupid pleasure addictions nor anything.

no really not even 3 seconds nor 10 seconds of the worst pain or worst torture

it's not just the duration

in disgusting horrible unwanted intensity the worst pain outweighs the pleasure garbage by a billion times even eating food
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,078
Oui, je suis d'accord.

mais même si les rôles étaient inversés, je détesterais toujours cet enfer comme personne.

Qui échangerait 9 heures de plaisir contre 1 heure de douleur et de torture extrêmes ?

Pas moi. Je ne veux même pas endurer 30 secondes de cette douleur insoutenable et constante. Ni pour une quelconque addiction stupide, ni pour quoi que ce soit d'autre.

Non, vraiment pas même 3 secondes ni 10 secondes de la pire douleur ou de la pire torture

Ce n'est pas seulement la durée

Dans une intensité répugnante, horrible et indésirable, la pire douleur surpasse de loin le plaisir, même manger.
Even if 90/100 pleasure?
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,078
Never to have be born🤮🤮🤮
 
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thevoidpointer

thevoidpointer

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Feb 20, 2026
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I'd just never accept any of this, to me existence is the most terrible, torturous mistake and I find it so dreadful how humans cause all this harm and torture by imposing this onto others, to suffer in this existence truly is an abomination.

I find it torture every second to exist and what is such terrible extreme cruelty is how humans do all they can to prolong and force the suffering and torture of existing no matter what even know it all just leads to decay and death anyway with no limit as to how much one can be tortured. This existence truly is just futile, dreadful suffering and for me only non-existence could ever be positive, for me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to finally be at peace from the torture of this dreadful existence.
Do you even read the thread before copy and pasting this?
 
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